Yippee!!! another 2 days to go! yeah!!
i cant believe it ekcely, felt like ive just came here to do
my interning. hahaha. but nways i wont forget d people here.
they r sooo crazy!! hahaa. but d ppl i wont forget definitely are my sprvsor n
kak ely. they meant sumthng to me. hehee.
nways i juz got my paycheck for feb juz now! can u imagine it??
aduyai...syahir2. pe laa doseku smpi kau lambat bg aku paycheck ku? hahaha..
wat else? ouh yeah, laz sunday i cut my hair again. i cut a bit on d front.
my fringe dat is. coz i tot its become longer n its poking my eyes!
hahaa. so d result of cutting on ur own, well..beshe laa. hahah
not to say well done! but its considerable.hahaha.
ouh forgot to mention. uitm da study leave. my sis cant come home
coz she has a lot of work to do plus her trip n wateva crap. *sigh*
ouh yeah, n i supposed to meet him for lunch on tues....but u kno wat happened??
he had to go back to cmpus for his ctu presentation! demmit ustzh mazlah! y did
u have to be absent all d time thus preventing d students to present their stuff!
its not fair! hahahahah. to me ofkoz. hahahha lagi.
nways diz sat me, feena, yana, ayu,chak, nad n nadea are planning on a gals' day out!
hahahhaa.it'll be so much fun!! kitorang decide nak wat camtu to celebrate finishing internship hahahha!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
6.4.09.
FINANCIAL WOES. Exactly during 7-ish today, me n my mom got into a heated argument. Or more likely, a bitch fit. Prior me finishing off today, she texted me to get a bite before heading home coz she’ll be having an early dinner today. But I got myself a mcflurry instead.
Previously, exactly at 5.30pm, I went home totally forgotten about the dinner thing. When I was stepping down the stairs at dang wangi station, I suddenly remembered about the reminder. Damn! What the heck. I’ll just find something to eat at sentral. Ouh wait, I only got 5 bucks! What am I gonna buy for 5 bucks at sentral?? Demmit! Suddenly, mcflurry came to mind. Ouh well, eskrim pon eskrim laa. Janji isi pewot gak. Hmm.
Back to what I’ve been sayin earlier.. so when she asked me whether I’ve eaten or not, of course laa I said no. I said I only took mcflurry je coz I only got 5bucks. That was when it began. She started talking and yapping and nagging and crapping bout the whole money thing. Said the bank has called up at her school so many times asking to pay up. Said she was deeply embarrassed with her colleagues. Afterwards she started to lecture me bout going out and asking her for money, sampaikan nak mkn pon xde duet. Duh, its not as if its my fault. My paychecks are SERIOUSLY SLOW. My supposed paycheck of January I only received in early March. Can u guys imagine that?? So how am I gonna have any money without asking my one and only source of income?? I know, I know.. she too is tight on the financial side. What with her ‘paycheck’less stretch for 3 months coz of the interstate exchange, (we just moved here last dec) and the husband who’s a pensioner certainly doesn’t help either.
Every family does have their own woes. Mine is not excluded either. But mine is definitely bigger than any of u guys’ problems. If u were to know what’s really happening in my family, u would’ve feel like wanting to go out and never come back. Seriously.
Okie I don’t intend to bitch bout neone, but really, just to let go of the feelings I’ve bottled up inside. My sister is waaaay far, (back on campus actually) so really, I just feel so damn alone. I feel alienated in my own house. That’s sick.
Right, back to the topic. Okie before we had that fight, she said she wanted to buy some fruits. Besides that fruit shop, is a restaurant so she told me to buy some food there just for myself coz she’s already eaten. So, DURING the fight, she parked the car by the shop, went out andshut bang the door really loud so that everybody nearby can hear it. GOD! I was sooooo ashamed of it coz a couple of people by the shop were looking at us. But still, I acted as if nothing happened and got out from the car too. She made her way to the shop and hastily chose the fruits she wanted. I stood there like a statue by the pavement, feeling damn humiliated. Then she suddenly rummaged through her bag and took out a ten-dollar note, “buy some food kat seblah.”
Okie, be honest with me. If u’ve just had a huge fight with ur mom or whoever else, would u feel the need to eat any longer?? Heh, I don’t think so.
So I said, “xnak mkn.” and I stood there, unmoved. Guess what she did next? She threw the 10-dollar note at my face! Wtf?? GOD!!! What would u feel if YOU were being treated like that?? I feel like strangling her!! Seriously! Out of my sound mind, I was so fuming mad of that action, cuss words just came straight out from my mouth like bullets finding its victim.
"Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, ampunilah dosaku ini sesungguhnya aku tidak berniat untuk berbuat begitu. God forgive me, for I’ve truly sinned so badly. For cursing her I’ve done, and entering Heaven is unlikely of. Astaghfirullahalazim."
So I took the money (what do u expect? She certainly won’t take it. And y would I leave it just there?) and shoved it inside my bag. I stood by the road for a few seconds before heading to the car. (It was not locked. She forgot to lock it. Good. Easier for the carjackers to hijack the car)
I sat in the car for a few seconds before she came in and again, banged the door shut. (thank you for satisfying the curiousity of the people around) Upon reaching home, I went straight to my room and locked it. I sat and I lie down on my bed repeatedly. Finally, I send a text message to kak ely asking how I could get my paycheck of February fast coz I really needed to use the money now. Demmit, if I could get my hands on that money, I won’t even have to ask money from her again. Later kak ely replied that tomorrow I’ll have to call Training. If not, I could ask kak ina to email them. Both ways, I’m not even sure whether I could get it real fast. I seriously doubt it. Seconds passed by and then I heard her coming upstairs to her room and yeah, what else? Slammed the door shut. Thank you for making a drama in ur own house dear mother.
At the time I’m telling u guys this, I am typing this whole testament in the dark with just the light from the lappie screen beaming my room. My stomach is suddenly making funny noises (great. I can’t afford to be hungry now! I’m on a strike!) and there’s no food available within the radius of my confinement. (demmit! I knew I should spare me some of those sweets from the office)
Nevermind, my sis just called and I was bawling my eyes out sharing my story with her. She just listened and listened and listened till I stop tearing. Hahaha. Thanks sis! We talked for a while and then I hung up so we could text instead. Save credit laa weiyh! Pity her. Hahaha. Nways that’s all I could tell u guys now. Later.
Previously, exactly at 5.30pm, I went home totally forgotten about the dinner thing. When I was stepping down the stairs at dang wangi station, I suddenly remembered about the reminder. Damn! What the heck. I’ll just find something to eat at sentral. Ouh wait, I only got 5 bucks! What am I gonna buy for 5 bucks at sentral?? Demmit! Suddenly, mcflurry came to mind. Ouh well, eskrim pon eskrim laa. Janji isi pewot gak. Hmm.
Back to what I’ve been sayin earlier.. so when she asked me whether I’ve eaten or not, of course laa I said no. I said I only took mcflurry je coz I only got 5bucks. That was when it began. She started talking and yapping and nagging and crapping bout the whole money thing. Said the bank has called up at her school so many times asking to pay up. Said she was deeply embarrassed with her colleagues. Afterwards she started to lecture me bout going out and asking her for money, sampaikan nak mkn pon xde duet. Duh, its not as if its my fault. My paychecks are SERIOUSLY SLOW. My supposed paycheck of January I only received in early March. Can u guys imagine that?? So how am I gonna have any money without asking my one and only source of income?? I know, I know.. she too is tight on the financial side. What with her ‘paycheck’less stretch for 3 months coz of the interstate exchange, (we just moved here last dec) and the husband who’s a pensioner certainly doesn’t help either.
Every family does have their own woes. Mine is not excluded either. But mine is definitely bigger than any of u guys’ problems. If u were to know what’s really happening in my family, u would’ve feel like wanting to go out and never come back. Seriously.
Okie I don’t intend to bitch bout neone, but really, just to let go of the feelings I’ve bottled up inside. My sister is waaaay far, (back on campus actually) so really, I just feel so damn alone. I feel alienated in my own house. That’s sick.
Right, back to the topic. Okie before we had that fight, she said she wanted to buy some fruits. Besides that fruit shop, is a restaurant so she told me to buy some food there just for myself coz she’s already eaten. So, DURING the fight, she parked the car by the shop, went out and
Okie, be honest with me. If u’ve just had a huge fight with ur mom or whoever else, would u feel the need to eat any longer?? Heh, I don’t think so.
So I said, “xnak mkn.” and I stood there, unmoved. Guess what she did next? She threw the 10-dollar note at my face! Wtf?? GOD!!! What would u feel if YOU were being treated like that?? I feel like strangling her!! Seriously! Out of my sound mind, I was so fuming mad of that action, cuss words just came straight out from my mouth like bullets finding its victim.
"Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, ampunilah dosaku ini sesungguhnya aku tidak berniat untuk berbuat begitu. God forgive me, for I’ve truly sinned so badly. For cursing her I’ve done, and entering Heaven is unlikely of. Astaghfirullahalazim."
So I took the money (what do u expect? She certainly won’t take it. And y would I leave it just there?) and shoved it inside my bag. I stood by the road for a few seconds before heading to the car. (It was not locked. She forgot to lock it. Good. Easier for the carjackers to hijack the car)
I sat in the car for a few seconds before she came in and again, banged the door shut. (thank you for satisfying the curiousity of the people around) Upon reaching home, I went straight to my room and locked it. I sat and I lie down on my bed repeatedly. Finally, I send a text message to kak ely asking how I could get my paycheck of February fast coz I really needed to use the money now. Demmit, if I could get my hands on that money, I won’t even have to ask money from her again. Later kak ely replied that tomorrow I’ll have to call Training. If not, I could ask kak ina to email them. Both ways, I’m not even sure whether I could get it real fast. I seriously doubt it. Seconds passed by and then I heard her coming upstairs to her room and yeah, what else? Slammed the door shut. Thank you for making a drama in ur own house dear mother.
At the time I’m telling u guys this, I am typing this whole testament in the dark with just the light from the lappie screen beaming my room. My stomach is suddenly making funny noises (great. I can’t afford to be hungry now! I’m on a strike!) and there’s no food available within the radius of my confinement. (demmit! I knew I should spare me some of those sweets from the office)
Nevermind, my sis just called and I was bawling my eyes out sharing my story with her. She just listened and listened and listened till I stop tearing. Hahaha. Thanks sis! We talked for a while and then I hung up so we could text instead. Save credit laa weiyh! Pity her. Hahaha. Nways that’s all I could tell u guys now. Later.
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