.hols.

effing hols. siyesly. i was owedy at home since friday noon. i was tinking of going home diz wknd but upon hearing dat uitm will b closing for d nex week cz of d h1n1 epidemic, i pon ngan cepat txt my mom to pick me up n will b at home till tues. hahaha. malas nk dok umah sendiri lame2. dunno why.....first i heard bout d news dat perak campus will b closing down laz wed after d melaka campus is closed from sum1. then laz fri, wafa's bf told her in d morning during cls dat ours will b closed as well for d nex wk. so its considered as d mid term break for d whole uitm campuses. ceh.
bengang j. its like, we were juz starting class n d nex thing, we will b having our mid term break. (which i dun rly need now hahha) sangat cepat kott. later on if i soooo need d break, then i wont b getting one. cis.

nways diz hols pon im juz sitting around d house doin nothing. bowink gile. sumpah bowink. da laa diz sem i feel like unmotivated...i attend classes, i chill with my new fwens n my hsemates, i eat (A LOT)..but still im unmotivated. im stil adapting to new fwens, new classes, new programme, new surroundings, new faces...n wateva else new there is. hahahaha. cmon babe, cmon!! push urself a bit! u hv no one to look after u now. remind urself not to slack down! study laa! bile aku d umah, bukan watpe pn, so dats y i was tinking to go back to sa early than d rest. at least i can study there. (haha!) or kua jogging (haha lagi) or put over at my fwen's. or wateva. i'll figure bout it later. but i'll b alone though. no one will b at home nnt. ive not enuff credit, not enuff food, no fwens to accompany, no MONEY (hukhuk) n maybe d silence will make me think deep. kan? hahaa. it scares me a bit but nvm..i'll survive. hahaha. i ekcely soooooooooooo wanna meet up sum1 but he told me dat hes going back early too. n he didnt even asked me to meet up so it'll look like, aku j yg terhegeh2 nk jmp die kan if aku j yg nag tanye bile nk jmp, so might as well i zipped my mouth n hold d question kan. bialaa if die xnk jumpe aku pn, i dun gv an effing care laa. da penat tink bout others j wen others dun tink bout me dat much. toodles everybody. muahmuah. mls nak type da.

induction

on d 18th of july 2009, my fac had diz induction thingy going on at bukit cerakah sa. at first i thought of NOT going and go home, but since my buddy wafa had constantly been nagging me to come so....g j laa kan. shian lak. hahaha. i was tinking mbe it COULD b fun..rite? n since my classmates r going to, i wont b so bored to death. rite? hahaha.

so d plan was wafa to fetch us at 7am at my block with aishah n we will go to n meet d rest there at APB. then wat happened was, i was all ready to go down wen aishah texted me, but wen i stepped out of d house, there was OWEZ sumthing that i forgot to bring. first it was my handphone (i left it on d bed) then it was my house keys (i left it on d dining table) finally it was d flip flops dat i forgot to put inside my bag. haish! i started d day by coming late. shorey guys! hahaha.

then wen we arrived there, we saw dat d buses were owedy there waiting for d students to board but we only saw a couple of people there. i tink it can even b only like, 2 classes. hahaha. nways each of us took d mee goreng whereas i took TWO teh o panas hahaha. (peduli hape aku! thirsty kott!) then later on, we took pictures on d bus coz we were so bored with nothing to do! we sat at d back of d bus, only d three of us. first it was like 3 buses. then bas blakang bas kitorg xya follow coz students sgt sket. so students from dat bus were asked to board our bus. looking at my watch, i asked wafa "fa, ne monyet2 yg len tuu?" she just shrugged her shoulders while looking at me. a few seconds later, we saw up from d bus d monyets were walking to d registration table, n NOT wearing white shirts lak tuu!! god! blagak senior sgt. hahaha. then they got in our bus n sat just in front of us. P put on his handphone to loudspeaker so its like d whole bus can hear wat music he was listening to, omg rase nak tarik2 j tinge die tuu! naseb bek lagu ley aku layan gak. hahhaa!
upon arriving there, we were asked to queue up n formed lines consisting of 11 in each group. first wen we were divided, we were all separated into different groups. but wat gals did was switched groups with d gals from d other groups hahaha!! so my group consisted of my classmates! wehehe. besh x? so mmg d day was super awesome with these bunch of crazy ppl! ;p

first we started off with aerobics. they put on d mila's song (which i hated, but still acceptable cz its catchy) n we did d poco-poco stuff. hahahah. but d poco-poco dat we did dat day was different from d one dat i did back in perak. diz one had a lot of steps. ssh nk follow bt still i enjoyed it. haha. ouhyeah each of d team was given a piece of cloth with different colours for each group (mine was yellow) n each of us ekcely had to divide dat piece of cloth to accomodate d members of our group. plus, each of us had to tie d piece dat we got around our head n wear it like a headband. hahahaha. i helped tied headband p cz it was loose n fa tied mine. n she said i looked cute. (blushing sket. WAHAHAHA!!)

nex we had d explorace. pergh. i so HATE running around n getting all sweaty. coz i get tired easily n will sweat a lot like a pig n get my hair all messy. hahaha. btw p (nur luthfi) was my group leader n he was sporting like hell! siyesly. d questions were tough but we as a team sgt bantu-membantu. hahaha. esp d questions involved history thingy. n there was diz part where we had to like, sambung ayat dari ayat terakhir yg disebut oleh org terakhir tadi. i was soo effing blur at diz time (i dunno y) i couldnt really get my mind work up. demmit. but they helped me a lot. thx guys! ;p

p was constantly asking us if we felt tired, tell him. then kitorg nih sek menyembang j dari start race hingge laa abeh race. wahahhaa. siap de nyanyi2 ag pergh besh dowh. hhahaha. then pas beh explorace kitorg de sukaneka lak. pergh bnci dowh bl dorg involvekan tepung. pergh da laa abeh muke aku, mulut aku n wambot aku kne. cis! shiap de diz one hawt senior guy (hahaha tp style xbesh) tegur aku saying, "pasni xya pki bedak da." biadap tol. aku pn rep, "tuulaa, save compact sket kan? maceh laa." hahahaha.

ouhyeah d seniors brought a photographer too. our team (or my classmates more like haha) were all camwhoring dat day. it was like, everytime he wanted to snap a shot, we were all looking at him n gave a pose. hahaha!! aku lagi laa kan. haha. xkesah laa cam photographer ke, cam kwn2 ke, cam senior ke, sume aku posed asl dorg snap arah aku. wahahah!! sampaikan de diz senior said aku nih camera-fwenly. hahaha!! so at d end of day, we watched d montage did by d seniors n our pictures were in most of d slides! hahahha. bkn nk bangge laa tp mmg tol pon. wehehehe. n finally, the prize-giving ceremony. my team won d "most cool team" award. hahaha.
(bangge sket) ;p


so these are d few pix dat i have in my collections. theres a lot more taken from d other cam (if u kno wat i mean hhahaa) dun wori, i'll try to get my hands on them n i'll upload here 4 u guys 2 c. hehehe. ciao!

shah alam.

Hye all. guess i havent been saying wats on my mind for these past few weeks. well, i dun hv any broadband n im stayin off campus so dat explains it well i think. hahaha! ouhkie now i'll tell u. a lot had happened for the roughly 3 weeks in sa. i registered on 5th of july at dwn sri budiman. i ekcely met a lot of my old fwens there but didnt have d time to ekcely meet them up in person n say hello or wtv. hahaha. (registration perlu dselesaikan dlu maa)

ouhkie, im rm8 with my old bff frm skewl, miss khausar. im glad i did ekcely, luv ya babe! ;) for i can count on her for nethng. nways in d first week, everything was not to wat i expected. but i managed even though i was a bit moody during that time of week. ;(
on monday, d first day, me n my hsemates took the rapid to go to class. we sat far at d end of d bus n we ekcely sat on each other's laps for there was no space except two. hahaha. they all got down at the mass comm fac while i got down at d bus stop nearby d pusat kesihatan, n i had to walk further up a bit n cross d road to go to my fac. cis.

later wen i got there, i tink my face looked kinda lost so diz one gal pointed me d direction of d office n said i had to hand in d green file first. i went to sit besides her later on n we chatted. there were two other gals n they were all from dip grads too. hahaha. ouhkie so im not d only one here. good. after a few moments of juz sitting there not knowing wat to do or where have the rest been, suddenly there was diz one lady told us dat our classes are conducted at the kenanga college (demmit) n not there at d fac. she photocopied d timetable of d four classes n gave us each n told us to go to kenanga first n choose our own classes. (wow. hahaa)

so diz gal who pointed me to d office earlier on (wafa) drives so i went with her to the college. the other gals (izzah n nabila) followed with izzah's car too. nways wen we got there, me n wafa went to class D. later on we got to know dat the rest were pre-tesl students n are 19-year-olds ppl! demmit! couldnt u guys get any younger than me?? hahaha. so the rest of d week was ouhkie with class.. d lecturers were ouhkie too i guess..n d food?? damn, i can get fat netime soon!

xkesah laa kan, nways after d past few weeks, im good with diz gal wafa. she reminds me of my fwen nisa from skewl. shes diz sweet gal who is not juz gentle but funny as well. totally d opposite of me HAHAHA! BUT, after spending days of hours with her, now i know shes not dat angelic. hahaha! shes juz LIKE ME! so dats y i can click with her. fyi, she was a dip holder of mass comm from melaka. haha. wen i asked her on d reason of her switching to LG, she said dat she wanted a change of scene. ouh same lagi. huhuhu.
nways ever since i have officially lived here in sa, i tink ive gained weight back laa. hukhukhuk. coz wat i do most is EATING hahaha! i tink ive hung out at most of d famous joints here esp at mapley laa kan. hahaha. nsb bek my new fwens here ske lepak sane gak, so ouhkie de kwn lepak laa. hahahaa! but d guys ske sgt lepak barra, i still dunno why. its not like d food is so damn good, but they said dat d price is cheaper than d other places. ouh well. xtau laa kan, im d type of person wen it comes to food, i dun look at d price so much. hehehehe. coz i tink d price is average by standard at most of d shops, but wen it comes to d environment, it HAS to look dinable to me. hahaha.

ive also have taken up riding d motorbike n bringing d arc helmet to class as a part-time job. d reason? coz alina insists of me riding with her. fine by me, minus d icky feeling of wearing d helmet (i cant really handle wearing a helmet, it feels weird on my head n plus, its big. diz is bcoz its jonny, imma's bf punye helmet.) n d stupid feeling of being called rempit by Ramen in my cls. cis. damn u Ramen. hahaha. they juz thought dat i ride to class, n seeing d helmet (looks so like a boy-owned helmet no wonder laa haha) dat i wear, makes them wonder of wat kind of motorbike do i have. hahahhaa. they still like teasing me now n then but wth i dun care. hahahaa. they r ouhkie i guess. =)

well, so Haziq is d class rep. hes from bdr bru selayang. hes a funny guy really n can mix up with juz about neone. hahaha. but hes owez with d gals, i tink hes d nex pencinta wanita. HAHAHA!


haha diz pix was taken from behind by my clsmate. n d bag is not his either. gewdix tol pki bag pompuan. hahaha. and diz pix below is d gal named wafa dat i told u guys bout. sweet kan? tp sweet gak yg d gal in red, kan kan kan?? hahahaha!! diz shot was taken laz friday. hahaha. supan dowh.


below r d two monkeys who r owez monkeying around in class. hahahaha. but i love talking to them even tho they clown A LOT. hahaha. class will b bowink without them, siyesly. god, y do i praise them so much?? hahaha. nways these 2 dudes both have d same name n dat is luthfi. but d one wearing d specs is nur luthfi whom we called as P and d other gewdix guy is luthfi whom we called by Lut only.


below here is d pix of me n effy. her name's afifah ekcely but we call her effy. shes nice n is owez smiling. she was a pre-tesl student b4 diz. i tink she was in d same group as haziq's previously.

the last one.

The last ym ~
Mer shorey xsempat save ko nye..aku da close hehehe [ampun ampun]


The last ym, yet the words said were short ones. As if xsabar da nk tinggalkan dunia ym. Haha.
Mer ko nye sumpah aku lupe nk save..hukhuk. kitenye pjg kan, cam beshe laa even tho ko da byk kali hint "brg aku xpack abeh ag, runsing2 rase nk ido". tapi aku sengaje wat bodo senar hint ko tuu. hahaha. ouhkie mer i wish u a very best of luck there at puncak alam. jgn lupe daku d sek7, senang2 datang laa. wahaha!!

After diz post, i tink it will b quite some time for me to update [hukhukhuk] bawak bsabar yea kwn2..senang2 aku post laa baru. xsenang aku bia j sampai akhir tahun. HAHHAA!
ciao. muahmuah.

Ouh Kenangan Lalu. Hahaha

Bile da nak masok sangat sa nih..mule laa terpk kenangan2 silam kat si. hahaha. mcm2 pix amek n each n every one of d pix has its own story to tell. wenever i happen to look at those mementos, i will immediately have flashback memories. so have a look for urself at these pix. ;)

+ Event Cavalry P4 +

+ first day aku prac dalaman P5 +

+ ETR - Oceanfront Beach Resort +

+ Outing bersame roommates ku +

+ trip to ipoh jalan2 weee +

+ laz class pn adura (coolest lect!) +

+ sungguhku xkan lupekan fogging yang slalu diadakan time2 maghrib n mmakse aku yg kdg2 bertowel j menukar baju smule! biadap. +

+ dinner oM at teluk batik +

+ inilaa mase daku P4, aku mule mgenali bdk2 weng my juniors nih. [in d pix : Que] +

+ uptown : first time lepak ngn these juniors yg weng, aku pn weng +

+ Fam Day Event P2 - black baby!! +

+ Merdeka Day 09 - ouh rindunye +

+ Intercourse : ramai bdk tuwon ms nih besh! +

+ Majlis Aye UiTM hahaha. [skip cls acc xtahan tuu hahaa] +

+ Berjalan-jalan di kampus haha. beshe laa. xley dok blk, pns. +

Mama....Upset?

Events leading up to the day of the registration of me at sa was VERY UNEVENTFUL. everything was messed up in my life like it never did b4. my head was freaking crazy, i had so many to tink of, and not just of the docs watsoever....things were not going so smooth for me diz couple of weeks. i went to do all the things for the registration thingy by myself (with my sis ofkoz laa kan.) without really asking or telling her in details. if MY head couldnt really tink well, do u expect me to burden her with all dat crappy stuff?? hell no! n bcoz i handled diz by myself, well, u could say d pressure was one hell of a good one. hoi makan dalam aku camni! if u cant really tell neone or share it with neone, then wat do expect a person to feel or react?? pergh psychiatrist pon sure pengsan dowh!

All the emotions were there, bottled up inside me all the way thru, so if ever nething went wrong, i juz could go tearry-eyed wherever, whenever. no doubt it. in fact, had one juz now at kopitiam wen me n fam were having dinner. my mom was yapping coz of her not knowing the details of watever ive been doing for d past weeks, saying again dat juz bcoz im 21 im not big enuff to handle everything, well if u really want to handle all, then if anything goes wrong dun call me.
God! with everything dat was SO WRONG at diz time of my life n i couldnt really handle it properly and with no one to turn to, i felt so helpless, so useless, so down, so unloved, so betrayed and most importantly, so misunderstood! even my mom could say dat, how on earth would u tink my fwens would feel otherwise??

Call me crazy. but diz past two weeks ive been on an emotional wreck. i would juz cry and cry and cry. call me a wacko. but YOU certainly wont know n wont ever guess how i really feel deep inside. im juz a girl, people. im not strong enuff to handle all diz emotions plus pressure. its like, im standing on a steep cliff with nothing to hold on to, and juz waiting for me to fall and roll over and hit all the rocks all the way to the bottom of the cliff, and died. [i sound so dramatic haha]
but honestly, i juz dunno how to explain it. its juz a feeling dat only urself would understand n no one else [even if they tried] i felt like......the tension is damn high and i could possibly juz kill myself. but no, i wont. so dun worry. haha. but yeah, ive developed diz weird habit of mine during diz time of stress-handling moments and dat is : taking baths very late at nite. i would juz stand under the shower, holding the shampoo bottle in one hand [without really opening it and if i use it, it'll be like i only put in on my hair. i didnt lather it up.] and the other hand is pressed to the bathroom wall. no lights will b turned on during diz time and i will be like, tinking and tinking and tinking while i juz stand there under the shower without really taking a shower. know wat i mean? funny how i could do it. but if u were me, diz is wat u'll do too. so dun blame me. blame the mind. haha. and after "thinking session" i'll be like, omg. my head is spinning. i can feel d temperature rising on d outside but i feel cold inside. so i guess my body system is freaking weird too. my legs are a bit wobbly..my hair fall episodes are seriously affecting me..i couldnt sleep even though im sleepy. ive been having nitemares like, forever and wat do i do if im having diz moment? well, pop a tablet and off i'll go. its not really dangerous if i kinda "have a slight fever" rite? haha. dun wori, diz is not done frequently. (i stil luv my body ouhkayy?? haha)

Ive been sharing these crappy and weird stories with an ex-rm8 of mine whom i could REALLY TRUST with. she, [and im not kidding here] has helped me A LOT. by her words, by her thoughts. by her advice. if i wanna tel her nething, she'll listen till the end. even if my stories tu sume cite berulang-kali yg xpenah kesudahan, stil she WILL stil listen. and im grateful to her for that. there were times wen she had to deny me, but in those times i understood y she had done dat. but in times dat i need her, she'll b there. thank u. i know dat ive been not a really awesome roommate but at least ive tried. im sry for troubling u with all my sad sagas all diz time, sampai ko kawen nnt pon akanku carik gak. ko kan kaunter kaunseling aku. hehehehe. she could tolerate with my crazy actions, weird thoughts and crappy style BUT she was one hell of a mad woman wen i told her bout my new habit. haha. sry laa. i couldnt help it k? no one is ever around to hear my thoughts and no one is ever around to actually be there for me. the only soul whom i trust so much has betrayed me and i felt so stupid for believing in him.
nways, diz ex-roommate of mine told me to pls tc of myself n pls stop watever dat im currently like doing haha. ko jangan wiso laa, aku ouhkie. siyes. im fine and i can tc of myself, for now.
HAHA. at least pls respect me and support me. coz for all i know, EVERYONE HAS TURNED THEIR BACKS ON ME AND LEFT ME ALONE.
THANK U, ALL OF U WILL BE REMEMBERED PERFECTLY, PLS TAKE UR NUMBER AT THE COUNTER OVER THERE AND U WILL BE GIVEN BACK WAT U GAVE TO ME.

Nways i tink mama was upset bcoz :
- she will hv no one to make her ribena again
- she will hv no one to fight with her again (haha)
- she will hv no one to be checked on every now and then (as if aku xsedar mama asek bukak pintu blk everytime she wanna go sumwhere. dun wori, im still in the room, SLEEPING! haha)
- she will hv no one to share the gossips with nemore.
- she will hv no one to teman her if ever my stepdad isnt around hehehe.

--> conclusion : alaawh ckp j laa mama rindu adek nnt. dats y mama marah2 skang kan, kan? hahaha