the songs i go for when i seek solace ~

aku dan diriku

org tade kije begini laa yea rakan-rakan. hee ~

suke mengambel gmbr melalui fon kakakku n directly upload them to fb yeehaa ~

hide and seek?

owkei...this happens only when: 

1. im in a 'serabut' mood and will not care about anything, 
2. will just dump everything on the bed as i go about getting ready to go out,
3. or after comin back from outings.

*this one was due to all of the above hehe 

btw can u spot what items were included in the pix?

thinking away ~

i dunno what to believe, what to think..

a lot of things have been running on my mind these past few days..

my mom keep askin me to be nice to the 'dad' due to some new reasons..

been wantin to meet up w afiq n pour all my heart's contents..

been wantin to go down the path alone n reconsider the matters that need considering..

wanna someone to tell me what to do n what i shouldnt do at this moment..

wanna go on top of a mountain n scream all i can..

need someone to b strong for me n hug the pain away..

n yeah..i dun need someone who feels forced to luv me..

being alone is sweeter than being suffocated..

i hate it!!

i wanna cut my hair!! the split ends are really botherin me! ggrrr!

and my side-swept bangs are growin out. i have to cut it! 

cut it cut it cut it!!!

just for reading pleasure ~

Every girl has three guys in her life.
The one she loves.
The one she hates.
and the one she can't live without.
And in the end,
They're all the same guy.

I'm sorry I'm not skinny enough so you can see my ribs. 

I'm sorry my boobs aren't big enough. 

I'm sorry I'm not fake. 

I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough. 

But most of all I'm sorry you cant accept me for who I am!

if time was at my side..

there are a lot of things that i wanted to tell n share w my babes but unfortunately....the words couldnt come out. it feels ive lost my voice n the words wont come out. *drama

nways i really miss these guys.. bile dok sorang2 kat uma macam2 laa aku fikir kan...

n something just been bothering me for quite awhile..my mind is so preoccupied w thinkin that, that i found it has creepin up on my appetite.. *sobs*

mish these babes  :(

mish her....and the late hamster efy hehe

i really mish these ppl esp afiq n feena... :'(

n the bestie.. wuwuu...

n missin those moments w these dudes.. now's not d same any longer..

n the jamming sessions w both of them... *sigh

everything's different now. i wish i could turn back time.

why can't you?

why cant he understand what i want and what i need?

why couldnt he show that he cares n loves me?

why couldnt he look deeper of what i really am trying to imply?

p/s: not the guy in d picture. :p

cricket anyone?

cricket = lighter

i know i know people will ponder on the reason why im posting this.

im making it clear that i dont smoke n will try not to haha. BUT i do carry around a lighter with me.

i dunno why...i sometimes like to buy lighters for its colour n design, but only d cheap ones laa haha.

i know i know people will say, "hey rugi laa ko beli tapi xde gune"

who says i cant make use of it? sometimes when people dun have their lighters w them to light up the candles, AH-HAH! there goes my lighter.

n when people forgot to bring their lighters around to smoke, AH-HAH! there goes my lighter again.

see it does serve its purposes hehe.

sekian ~

part 3 - ended.

a whole semester of part3 ended...it ended with so much fun n food included :p

it summed up with so many experiences of pain, heartaches, tears, mishaps, fun, joy, freedom n other sorts of feelings u could describe of.

learnt so much n lived more just because of u guys.

i love you.

and I find the subject....guilty for being inappropriately passionate about the object.

its been proven just a while ago. i couldn't beat her. clearly im the obvious loser. 

its impossible. now its even like, its hopeless..or useless. 

its like, whatever desperate attempts i try will just result in sore losses.

any structured plans would've end in being im the joker.

funny isn't it coz whatever that happens to me i'll remember him. 

he likes this, he doesn't like that..blablabla..crap.

forgetting is such a hard thing to do coz i'll be like, searching and searching for him.

i know, i know...i'll look fuckin desperate. but yeah, i AM desperate. 

desperate for his attention. 

which i obviously won't get until HELL FREEZES OVER.

now, i know most of the babes have been like, "get over him already!" or "u can have better"

but i dunno...we're talkin bout feelings here. 

funny isn't it coz no matter how that person screws u up, you'll still be like, willin to do whatever just to be close and connected. damn.

im always like this. falling for the wrong guy. either he's taken or im just bff material.

and people keep askin, "why the single-ness?"

funny i couldn't answer that.

i LOVE marketing!

I LOVE MARKETING!

WEHUU!!

*guling2 rebelling*