This is for whomever happens to stumble upon my blog

Just like any other final semester students, I am now undergoing my internship at one of the small companies here in Shah Alam. Ever since last semester, I have sent my applications at many places, but as usual, the companies would respond late, sometimes very late. And I was supposed to start on 1st March, and by right the latest is 5th March. Long story short, I was experiencing some nervous breakdown moments here and there, and coupled with some other ongoing issues in my life, yes, I really felt like killing myself. sigh. In the end, I had to take my last resort in this company and am still trying to adapt myself here and make this place 'likeable'.

After all, it's only for 3 months right? WRONG. 3 months in this hell-hole. 

I was at the workplace, and I got super bored so I had to do this

 I was supposed to go out with someone last night, as you can see I was all ready and he still hadn't arrived. In the end, I cancelled it. Ughh. I hate waiting for more than one hour for people. Cmon if you think you can't make it, tell me earlier man. 

oh wow.

Nothing much to update. here's a pic of me during raya.

and i'm off to campus for the new semester tomorrow. soooooooooo not looking forward to it.  *sigh*
it's not a secret that i don't like going back there every single time the new semester starts. the place just doesn't give me much joy.

cooking 101

okay. so i admit im not one of those girls who like to  cook. i dont even like preparing myself anything for that matter.. (im talking about big things here, the gempak dishes, not those frozen ones). also, that explains why i dont know how to cook. and my mom doesnt force me to go to the kitchen and cook up a storm too. well, considering that shes also one of those moms who dont cook by daily basis. rarely. only on occasions like the fasting month or raya only she would cook. so that explains further on why i look forward to when my mom is cooking. i dont complain since most of my childhood she has cooked, so now i'll just let her chill haha.
but the reason for my entry today is that.. after raya she'll be taking a trip to a neighbouring country for a few days and so my sister and i will be left alone at the house. considering that my sister will be working, im gonna get starved to death because there wont be cars around. one of the few days back, i was thinking about this and then suddenly i thought, hey why not cook? i could cook. well, maybe simple ones. and so i asked the mom to teach me how to cook some meals later so that i can prepare them by myself. all these starting with nasi goreng. HAHA. well, yeah. laugh all you want i dont give a damn. but yeah i only learnt how to make nasi goreng HER style just now. just an hour ago. hahahaha. so yeah, i have one recipe up my sleeves now.

Ah such bliss.

After a few weeks of suffering from a bad case of mouth ulcers from which i couldn't talk or eat solids.. thank god finally today i could feed myself some rice and bbq chicken. the ulcers are healing fast - thanks to the antibiotics and painkillers supply. Just imagine, having to watch your family eat your favourite food or be at your favourite restaurants but YOU COULDN'T EAT ANYTHING FROM THERE is just hell man. 


Anyway, the Ramadhan month is coming to an end... and Raya is nearing. YEAY! i've already bought the baju and some retro-ish earrings.. couldn't find any suitable heels though. well gotta find them fast before my size is gone! 


Oh yeah, just wanted to share this little story - i went to the doc last week for the ulcer treatment and he was a bit surprised to see how bad they were at the time and he told me that he wasn't sure what triggered them but i should stay away from spicy food. ... well, IM NOT REALLY A BIG FAN OF SPICY FOOD anyway.  


So! yesterday i decided to look up articles concerning mouth ulcers and surprise, surprise, they did mention something about excessive caffeine intake which could lead to having ulcers. 


Well now, i think we've found our main culprit here.  CAFFEINE ADDICT HERE. Guilty!
So after the breaking of fast today, i finally managed to get my first cuppa after a few weeks of restraining myself. and that was like, poison to junkies.   *bliss*

Some of my favourite words

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Something's changing inside you
And don't you know

my fave man

My 4-year-old cousin has an iPad of her own...... well, even though i think its shared between her and her probably 11-year-old brother.. but still, they are just kids. when i was 4, i was probably busy watching My Little Pony or something.. or annoying the fuck out of my big sister... or busy accumulating cuts and bruises somewhere.... kids these days.... *sobs*

(brb, reminiscing what a lame kid i was)

hahaha.

Love, Music, Fashion, and Rock & fuckin Roll

Okay, so i was browsing through my lappie out of complete boredom this morning when i came across some of my favourite movies that i havent seen ever since i came home for the holidays.. lemme tell you, these movies are BEYOND awesome!! they are magnificent! but some of them i dont have anymore so....oh well, i'll just recommend to you as well.. all these movies are cool, that is if you fulfill these criteria:

• you LOVE the old school - anything about it like the music, the fashion, the style, the way kids behave during that era
• you love MUSIC, particularly the ROCK music
• you dont mind high school flicks.... okay maybe not all are based on the life of high schoolers....but still.

okay so i present you my Top 10 favourite movies:

10. Ferris Bueller's Day Off

see how a typical high school guy plans his 'day off' with his friends. its hilarious!

9. Rock n Roll High School

it featured The Ramones, need i say more? and just look at the soundtracks of the movie!

8. Top Gun

i dont care what you guys think but i love the guy! and every guy in a uniform THAT hot with aviators on will just get the nod from me dah-ling.  XD

*but seriously, i love military or naval films

7. Cry-baby

well, who wouldve say no to johnny depp??  although this was produced in 1990, but it portrayed the setting in 1950s.

6. Grease

who could forget Danny's sleek dance moves? ITS ELECTRIFYING!! if you havent watched this movie in your life yet, well, YOU BETTER!! it'll not let you down i swear. yes, although it has a sequel to it, the first one is always better.

5. Pretty in Pink

this has been considered as one of the best 80s teen movies of all time. another one of molly ringwald's great performances as a high school outcast who fell in love with the rich kid, blablabla.. you get the idea. but its cool, i love the fashion, the dialogues (they are witty, especially from ducky her guy best friend!)

4.  St Elmo's Fire

this is also one of the most renowned movies in the 80s. it has every element ever in the movie - love triangle, conflict between friends, troubled life, denial, betrayal.......... its just a perfect movie to see with a whole bunch of friends... girls that is.

3. The Graduate

no one would ever forget the image of this rescue scene. it has also been recaptured in so many spoof films. dustin hoffman at his best here, playing the confused recently graduated from college Benjamin Braddock, who is having an affair with the wife of his father's business partner, and after a while falls for the daughter too. but how will he prove to her that the love is true and get away from the grip of the cunning Mrs Robinson. also, for you 60s fan, ALL of the soundtracks are from Simon & Garfunkel. how cool is that?

2. The Breakfast Club

every kid who have watched this movie will no doubt agree with me that this is THE ULTIMATE 80s teen movie. five kids are stuck together in a room on a Saturday for their detention, five different kids with different backgrounds, different attitudes and different reasons on why they are there. see how they finally learn to know that each of them is not what it seems from the outside. very awesome movie.

and finally..........................   *drumroll*

1. Breakfast at Tiffany's

one of the best 60s movies, and with Hepburn already an icon, her fashion in this movie is what made little black dress, string of pearls, and big shades famous in the fashion industry. this movie is no doubt the best classic movies of all time.

My new Google theme. HA!

HA! this makes me loving Google even more! Feels like going on to Google and just stare at it... hahahaaha! 

Day 6: A picture of something that makes me happy

during his days with GnR

(the last photo is his current one)

Duff McKagan

Although he's a 47-year-old guy now and old enough to be my dad or whatever.. well, I DON'T CARE. I just love his music - whether back when he was with Guns n' Roses, in Velvet Revolver or now, Loaded. he just rocks man.. and not just by being a bassist. he could play other instrument like drums, and yeah he sings too. you have no idea how his music helps me sometimes to get through the days when i feel like no one is there. and yeah, he's fuckin hot. so your argument is invalid. bye.

Day 1: A photo of yourself and 15 facts about you.

1. The name’s Farhana.

2. Im 23 this year. yeah, i do feel old around you guys…….  =,=

3. I live in Malaysia.

4. Im the youngest of two daughters.

5. I used to be close to my dad….but upon growing up, im more to my mama.

6. I hate being in the dark. like, really2 dark room. i hate it. my heart would beat so fast im sure it’ll pop out. also, ive a phobia of roaches since i was little.

7. I like watching and listening to horror movies/stories. they give me thrills. but i’d get scared afterwards when getting to sleep haha.

8. I can be a girl whos really sensitive but only to my close friends. haha.

9. I can be shy when meeting people for the first time. so, if i dont talk that much, its not really surprising.

10. Am not really a morning person, but i can get up easily if i know i have important things to do. also, am a light sleeper. the slightest sound or movement can wake me up.

11. I love chocolates. and cheese. hahahaha. i love all fattening food. XD and i like looking at beautiful photos, thats in terms of photography okay.

12. I love making friends. but i tend to be awkward around boys…i dunno. maybe its because of my self-esteem. i dont really have that when growing up…

13. Am really a tumblr addict. hahaha. plus, totally addicted to coffee.

14. DUFF MCKAGAN is my obsession. alongside GnR, rock, guitars and sexy musicians. hahaha.

15. Music is the next closest thing to me other than my family and friends.