there was never a time in my life when a thought of her did not creep up in my mind one or two times. i admit we had a history together. i am deeply saddened by her actions and thoughts previously...and what she had done, or didnt do. but i cannot judge a person w/o not being in her shoes. well, yes she did bad things, to herself n others, but then she must have reasons to justify herself, right? i mean...everybody makes mistakes, including me. nobody's perfect. but i truly believe.....that in her age n experiences she shouldve known better. but, i do miss the old times though. here's a memento.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
reminiscing old times
okay since everyone's been crazy bout graduating n stuff...well that reminds me of MY own diploma graduation...hahaha. jeles laa gak kan tgk org lain post grad photos...haha! nways here are only some of them which i do love seeing from time to time.
it was ekcely during the Q-ing up
this is when i was q-ing up b4 entering the grand hall. wahh mata bersinar-sinar haha!
dlm dewan. i sat next to Eah my clsm8. not supposed to take pix but hey, knowing me, i did nways.
hahaha this photo always make me laugh coz i look so ridiculous! ekcely i was nervous helluva lot mase on stage so....
just right after coming out of the hall (l-r: Qmal, Yana, me, Chak)
with Kobe (one of the funniest guys ever) and Pet
alongside Feena, one of the bffs
Ijat..what can i say..man, this dude is freakin awesome! u can never talk to him w/o ended up not laughing. but when he's serious, he will not even smile.
introducing the housemates. (l-r: Nad, Imma n Yana)
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
another boring unproductive day goes by.
it has been weeks since ive really got myself out w friends and all..damn. im so bored out of my wits i just dunno what i should be doing anymore..what im supposed to do now, kill myself? yeah thats probably not a bad idea since life's been anything but fun. and lets not bring up today. well it could be considered as today as its already 7th of December. what about today, you say? well lets just say.....a friend of mine whom ive not seen since the day i took my spm cert in school...(probably what, 5 years back?) is getting married today and guess what? i couldnt come to her big day! T_T
it all comes down to the one big issue that everyone has. MONEY. yeahh. money is always an issue for me whenever the holidays start. you're asking why, izit? well, how should i put this? only bcoz i'll finish my ptptn whenever the sem ended and yes, im only too lazy to work my butts off (dont look at me! this is the only time when i can laze around!) *okay thats probably a bit of a lie but whos checking?*
nways trying to busy myself with books which my sis bought. yeahh. thank god im such a nerdy bookworm, i can read and read and read without feeling bored. (yeahh provided that the books are enjoyable, that is). last i checked ive gotten straight finishing 2 novels in just one night! damn. here i recommend you readers out there to read Jane Green's Second Chances and Cecelia Ahern's The Book of Tomorrow. worth stuffing your nose on these literary. :) so nways got my hands on James Patterson's Hide and Seek. dunno how its gonna be yet coz havent started reading it but im sure its gonna be a page-turner as well. haha.
so anyhow if any of you cuties are like me who dunno what to do and is totally facing the boredomhood, holler at me. maybe we could arrange something like committing suicide together. at least it could be romantic..right? XD
Lets Just Fall In Love Again
1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Firework - Katy Perry
2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Secret - One Republic
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
If Its Love - Train
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Fly Away From Here - Aerosmith
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
I Cant Tell You Why - Brownstone
6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Touch Me - DJ Tiesto (err...asl dpt nih?)
7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU
Today My Life Begins - Bruno Mars
8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Dont Lie - BEP (HAHAHAHAHAHA!)
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
We R Who We R - Kesha
10. WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Like A G6 (Disco Fries Remix) - Far East Movement
11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Got Your Back - TI ft Keri Hilson
12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Adagio For Strings - DJ Tiesto
13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Shooting Star (Party Rock Remix) - David Rush, LMFAO, Pitbull, Kevin Rudolf
14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Stop - Spice Girls (yeahh you! stop right there!)
15. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
DJ Got Us Falling In Love Again - Usher (haha lagu romantic yg xbape nak romantic. sian wedding aku nnt hoho)
16. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
I Party - Far East Movement feat Iz and DB Tonic (asl lagu nih?? ne ley org nak party time aku mati??)
17. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Love The Way You Lie part 2 - Rihanna ft Eminem (err.....my hobby's nt lying ok. hahaha)
18. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
The Time (Dirty Bit) - BEP (hahaha mungkin sbb im always late for everything)
19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Please Dont Go - Mike Posner
20. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Airplanes - BOB ft Hayley W (hahahaha yeahh gimme, gimme, gimme more)
21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Let It Rock - Kevin Rudolf ft Lil Wayne
22. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Lets Just Fall In Love Again - Jason Castro
p/s: i know korg sume da wat thru fb but this is only for tagging in blog. :)
ahh mls nak tag da. :p
Friday, December 3, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
good news.
damn. most of my friends are getting married. *sigh*
this is unfair. hahaha! but still, am really happy for them.
one of my friends is having her hen's party tomorrow...i mean, today laa kan sebab Wednesday.
its a shame i couldnt be there to join in the fun *double sighs* but hey, not to worry i'll get my butt down to Ipoh on her wedding day! hehehe. so INNA FARINA please do enjoy your last moments of being a bachelorette.
XD
Monday, November 29, 2010
things you probably dont know about me.
>> first and foremost - i HATE roaches! really, i do. so dont try me. coz you so dont wanna see what chaos could i do.
>> im not particularly a morning person BUT i do wake up easily. seriously.
>> i dont really like getting all sweaty coz i get rashes easily.
>> when i was a kid, i used to hate the darkness. now, i could tolerate being in the dark but not total darkness and with nobody in it!
>> im not fond of liars. dont lie directly to my face and pretend as if im dumb enough to believe it.
>> i dont really like being alone because if im alone, i tend to think a lot. and when i think a lot, well, you dont wanna know. and who am i supposed to talk to if im alone??
>> yeahh. im a hardcore daydreamer. i daydream A LOT. seriously. even if im in the class or when im having a conversation w friends. my mind tend to drift so many times that people would think of me as being blur.
>> on the other hand, i do tend to be blur at times. i dunno why. my bad habit is that, when friends have told me and i didnt get it on the first time, i'd rather just leave things that way and not ask the second time coz not many people are tolerant enough to explain again.
>> im not a spend-thrift person. HAHA. i spend a lot. sometimes i dunno what ive spent on. really, most of the times i just buy food, reload, maybe watch movies or go karaoke. and if i do have extras, i'll go shopping. but more often than not, i just have no idea where do my money goes.
>> i tend to fall for the wrong guy. every single time. damn.
>> sorry but yeah i do get sick quite easily. dont blame me but thats just the way i am.
>> am really a clumsy person. a klutz. i always trip so many times. i get countless bruises and cuts coz of that.
>> am not a fan of K-Pop or J-Pop or whatever Pop there is. hehehe. i like watching them, i complimented them, but i just not into them.
>> am quite a passive person at first. will gradually become active once we've bonded enough. seriously. i dunno why my friends wont believe that.
>> really sucks in presenting. why? coz i get stage fright helluva lot. i get really nervous when facing the audience and this will make me stutter and lose focus, hence will portray me as an idiot. XD
>> could be quite sensitive at times depending on the circumstances.
>> am not really a homebody person coz i get bored easily so i like going out and hanging out w friends a lot.
>> on the other hand, if im not out and about, i'll sleep. ohh, i sleep a lot! you dont know how long can i sleep haha. there are times when my mom would actually go into the room just to check whether im still alive or not. XD
>> apart from my fave hobby of sleeping, i read. novels usually. authors like John Grisham, Jeffrey Archer, Sidney Sheldon, Cecelia Ahern are my fave...apart from others. thank god i share this hobby with my mom so i could grab whatever shes bought so that i could read whenever its raining. (yes its the perfect time to be reading)
>> talking about the rain...i love the rain. i love cold weather coz then i get to curl up in bed with a book on hand while listening to the rain, blanketed by the comforter. but then, i dislike going out when its raining. i dont like getting wet coz like i said, i get sick easily so why looking for trouble when i could avoid it?
>> i LOVE music! music helps me to get by day-to-day in my life. i listen to it a whole load. like i said earlier, i dislike solitary so if theres no one, music accompanies me.
>> people dunno this but when i say i could be quiet at times, they find it hard to believe. i do, really. rather than talking non-stop and listening to people yapping, i prefer to be in the room sleeping, reading, texting or listening to songs. i could go by not talking for hours on end by myself. im amazed myself. haha.
>> love collectibles. i like collecting anything. my mom calls it hoarding. haha.
>> i eat a lot. and many times. seriously.
>> oh yeahh. a true fan of Nescafe.
there are many other things i could share but nanti2 laa update. hee ~
>> im not particularly a morning person BUT i do wake up easily. seriously.
>> i dont really like getting all sweaty coz i get rashes easily.
>> when i was a kid, i used to hate the darkness. now, i could tolerate being in the dark but not total darkness and with nobody in it!
>> im not fond of liars. dont lie directly to my face and pretend as if im dumb enough to believe it.
>> i dont really like being alone because if im alone, i tend to think a lot. and when i think a lot, well, you dont wanna know. and who am i supposed to talk to if im alone??
>> yeahh. im a hardcore daydreamer. i daydream A LOT. seriously. even if im in the class or when im having a conversation w friends. my mind tend to drift so many times that people would think of me as being blur.
>> on the other hand, i do tend to be blur at times. i dunno why. my bad habit is that, when friends have told me and i didnt get it on the first time, i'd rather just leave things that way and not ask the second time coz not many people are tolerant enough to explain again.
>> im not a spend-thrift person. HAHA. i spend a lot. sometimes i dunno what ive spent on. really, most of the times i just buy food, reload, maybe watch movies or go karaoke. and if i do have extras, i'll go shopping. but more often than not, i just have no idea where do my money goes.
>> i tend to fall for the wrong guy. every single time. damn.
>> sorry but yeah i do get sick quite easily. dont blame me but thats just the way i am.
>> am really a clumsy person. a klutz. i always trip so many times. i get countless bruises and cuts coz of that.
>> am not a fan of K-Pop or J-Pop or whatever Pop there is. hehehe. i like watching them, i complimented them, but i just not into them.
>> am quite a passive person at first. will gradually become active once we've bonded enough. seriously. i dunno why my friends wont believe that.
>> really sucks in presenting. why? coz i get stage fright helluva lot. i get really nervous when facing the audience and this will make me stutter and lose focus, hence will portray me as an idiot. XD
>> could be quite sensitive at times depending on the circumstances.
>> am not really a homebody person coz i get bored easily so i like going out and hanging out w friends a lot.
>> on the other hand, if im not out and about, i'll sleep. ohh, i sleep a lot! you dont know how long can i sleep haha. there are times when my mom would actually go into the room just to check whether im still alive or not. XD
>> apart from my fave hobby of sleeping, i read. novels usually. authors like John Grisham, Jeffrey Archer, Sidney Sheldon, Cecelia Ahern are my fave...apart from others. thank god i share this hobby with my mom so i could grab whatever shes bought so that i could read whenever its raining. (yes its the perfect time to be reading)
>> talking about the rain...i love the rain. i love cold weather coz then i get to curl up in bed with a book on hand while listening to the rain, blanketed by the comforter. but then, i dislike going out when its raining. i dont like getting wet coz like i said, i get sick easily so why looking for trouble when i could avoid it?
>> i LOVE music! music helps me to get by day-to-day in my life. i listen to it a whole load. like i said earlier, i dislike solitary so if theres no one, music accompanies me.
>> people dunno this but when i say i could be quiet at times, they find it hard to believe. i do, really. rather than talking non-stop and listening to people yapping, i prefer to be in the room sleeping, reading, texting or listening to songs. i could go by not talking for hours on end by myself. im amazed myself. haha.
>> love collectibles. i like collecting anything. my mom calls it hoarding. haha.
>> i eat a lot. and many times. seriously.
>> oh yeahh. a true fan of Nescafe.
there are many other things i could share but nanti2 laa update. hee ~
cw in the car. as always.
hahaha camwhoring adalah perkara biasa untuk para wanita yang berjaya. heheh.
>>> rakan2ku ... is there any pix here worth putting as the profile pix? probably not. XD
Sunday, November 28, 2010
A Personal Note
How should i put this..... i guess i still am feeling it. this whole thing is just a mind-boggling experience to me that...that, i couldnt be able to understand that person. i thought i knew him but i guess knowing and having an in-depth knowledge of that person's details differ as much huh? well dont people always say that do NOT judge a book by its cover. not to say that hes not a good friend..he could be. but then hes proven himself to be a worthless friend in time. a simple explanation would suffice if ever uve done anything wrong towards your friends, isnt it? everyone knows that justifications play a vital role in arguments..well apart from those people who dont realize what they did is wrong, people who do realized it always, i repeat, ALWAYS have to justify themselves. thats why we have the law, we have the court, we have the judicial system! how could you face the judgment of others when you could NOT even face me? i wonder.
I was in deep thinking the previous weeks earlier, that this happened maybe coz i messed up? or i didnt meet the expectations? or maybe he thought that i was clearly good enough only for him to kill time? damn thats so fucked up. haha. i wasnt really complaining though, bcoz if i hadnt put an end to it soon enough, i'll be in hot waters every single day (from the people around me constantly feeling emphatic towards me) well, no more pitying my sorry lil ass. ive decided that no more being the miss nice-friend-ever. yeahh to the relief of the people surrounding me, ive stopped all of it. but then im still feeling the grudge. sorry. i know its lame for holding back grudges but although it was a vague incident, it could be considered as fresh. well, im just taking my sweet lil time to kill this grudge. slowly but surely. yeahh thats it. a slow painful death. haha. ironic isnt it? whos killing who nways?
On a personal note though, well, what could i do if the intended person saw me as not fun enough (am i supposed to be a clown??), not cool enough (sorry last i checked ive no brother named Usher), not pretty enough (lack Jolie lips n Gisele's body), not fair enough (not a Snow White replica either), not having long shiny locks enough (i aint no Rapunzel dammit!), not photogenic enough (duhh im not Kate Moss!). yeahh its safe to say that im more the Plain Jane type rather than the Luscious Lila. guys seldom see me among the crowds. i guess, im through chasing guys. im tired of waiting them to finally pick up the hints and hit it up. but sadly, that NEVER happens. so im kinda jealous to girls who always had it easy with guys. no offense to anyone, im just saying what i feel. a babe of mine once said, why dont you just take on a guy who likes you? yeahh i could do that. BUT whats the point if i dont feel any connection to him? if i had to rack my brain on what to talk about during conversations....well, it aint happening. its not gonna work sweetie. sometimes i feel like i could just curl up in bed with a book on hand while listening to the rain. now, thats comforting. rather than i face people and not feeling at ease, right?
So.. John Grisham book. (checked) Comforter. (checked) Rain. (err....well that has to wait)
Till then.
once upon a story
okay ive a story to share w u guys. :p
this friend of mine misplaced her phone and she was in frantic trying to find the phone. but idk why she was at the cc later on, and then she asked another friend of mine to text me and ask me to reply back coz i wasnt online that time. so i quickly get online and asked her whats wrong. after she explained a bit, ive finally got the idea of what she was looking for initially. haha. so i calmly told her that the phone's not gonna be lost. shes just had misplaced it. either its in the car or its in the room. but ive the instinct that its not stolen or fell somewhere irretrievable bcoz shes the type of person whose phone is always at hand (like me) n so its impossible for her to not bring it anywhere. so i told her to keep looking n be calm about it when looking coz when u panic, u wont find it.
she was just worried of 'getting it' from someone ( :p ) and so i said to her theres no need to be worried. if its in the car, it might get slide behind or something. or between the gaps. i dunno. then after a while, theres the good news. she found her baby! where? in the car. hehehehehe. so i know ud find it. ur just like me. always misplacing things. in the end, its just very near to u, only u have to search thoroughly. :)
im glad u found it. da boleh tido tanpa nightmare. hee ~
Friday, November 26, 2010
introducing..
introducing...my all-time boyfie :
couldnt recognize him? well lets look at another picture of him.
*drools*
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