if only i could...

there was never a time in my life when a thought of her did not creep up in my mind one or two times. i admit we had a history together. i am deeply saddened by her actions and thoughts previously...and what she had done, or didnt do. but i cannot judge a person w/o not being in her shoes. well, yes she did bad things, to herself n others, but then she must have reasons to justify herself, right? i mean...everybody makes mistakes, including me. nobody's perfect. but i truly believe.....that in her age n experiences she shouldve known better. but, i do miss the old times though. here's a memento.