Vee

Wats a Vday?
People owez look at it as something like "a day of love".
There are many point of views from people about what vday truly means to them. 
For me, i dun really celebrate vday. i just wish people whom i loved vday as i think vday represents love.
So for me wishing my loved ones vday means that i luv n care so much about them. not only just on that particular day itself of course, but every single day just as long as im alive. its just on my opinion, that on this one special occasion its something that we should declare our love to them proudly out loud! hahaha.

Happy V-Day sayangs!  ;)

new addiction :)

Here's my latest addiction. Enjoy.

Ooo I wish I can have those shoes. Gorgy!

 

Audrey Hepburn-ish. Me likey! :)

 

Andro-style! Perfect for today's liberated women

I got hooked on this addiction thanks to Feena. huhuhu. Further info: Looklet

no silence needed

This past holidays have been episodes of weird, funny,sad moments all happening at once.
+ Ive always have these weird dreams which i dun really like. 
[I wake up to reliving those nitemares.]

+ Im forced to turn off my fon for a few days. 
[Downside? I miss him. I miss my fwens. Good part? Im finally able to actually distract myself from everything else.]
+ I got myself to driving around the neighbourhood. Yeay! [Haish bl tah nak amek lesen]
+ I save my credit during this period. Yeay again. hahaha. [or is it sumthing to be celebrated for?]
+ Im worried sick for this one particular person. I hope he's ouhkie now.
+ I sooo not ready to go back to my place in SA. I wish d holidays would b prolonged. :(
+ I wish to dye my hair. Again.
+ My eyes are tired n strained from  overfocusing on d damn lappie. huhuhu
+ I hope this Xmas my certain one wish would come true. HA-HA. 
+ To my fwen Azmer PLEASE UPDATE YOUR BLOG!! thank u. hehehehe 

they are obviously related somehow..no?

Best friends till the end!!! by aahhmna!! on Polyvore.com

Did you ever know that you're my hero
And everything I would like to be
If I can fly higher than an eagle
You are the wind beneath my wings
It might have appeared to go unnoticed
but I've got it all here in my heart
I want you to know I know the truth
Of course I know it
I would be nothing without you

I had this dream. This one helluva weird dream. In this dream a certain fwen of mine played the lead actor part. I duno how he got it, but he did. haha. Anyways, the storyline was pretty straightforward n simple. 
This particular fwen of mine was comatose. I duno how he got to be like dat, but yeah he did. I was late to know about his wellbeings until his fwen, whos my fwen too told me bout his condition. I rushed to the hospital with Afiq [how the hell he got to be in the dream as well, i dunno. sry fiq! huhu], just to see him on the bed, with his eyes closed. I greeted his family, his mom offered me her seat then they went out of the room to give me some privacy. [heheh]
I sat there for awhile thinking wat to say to him, before finally i managed to utter some words. I touched his left hand, it was pretty cold n lifeless. My eyes were getting hot with hold-back tears. I tried my hardest to converse with him, I talked n talked like it was a two-way thing wen in reality, it was rather a one-way conversation. 
I asked him to go back into consciousness bcoz then, nobody could be my alarm clock nemore. Nobody that i could nag every now n then, nobody whom i could....ahh it was not important. These words were the ones i clearly remembered in the dream.

I said, "The important thing for now is that you have to wake up from your deep sleep! You have to be alive, be the old you! Dont you remember, we did say that someday wen we were older, I said that you would b working under me n you said otherwise. Whos gonna nag me for bathing late at nite nemore if not you? Please wake up.... I promise i wont nag you nemore.."

After managed to fight back tears, I finally felt them flowing down my cheeks, unstoppable in seeing no response from him, not even a bat of the eyelid.
In the end, his family came back into the room n his mother consoled me a bit [eiyh? salah org nih auntie huhu] before Afiq finally led me out of there. It didnt stop there actually. I made a short drama in the hallway. [I broke down n cried huhu. Pergh drama siott]
Pastuu harap mf aku terjage. heheh. But anyways I just wanna say to that someone, regarding you going to the hospital n this dream i had...it wasnt wat im looking forward to.
Pls tc of urself. Hugs.

[ Hear me out ]

Can u guys not fight? I hate being in a hateful surroundings. I hate seeing people fight. I hate fights! In fact, i despise fights! Every now n then there will be nasty words popping up from nowhere. Man, this is bullshit!
How can u guys remain like this?? Do u guys know what effects does it have on ME?? I become depressed man! Im a person full of emotions lately. It seems i cant think about whats happening in a right state of mind!  

I hate u, I hate u!

perasaan klakar dlm tempoh mase sekejap

Aku suddenly rase nak kua secare solo pada hari esok. Aku telah menetapkan niat aku untuk tidak berjumpe dengan sesiape jua. Yea Farhana! Set your mind! Ur going S O L O! yeehaa!!
A few  minutes later @Skype...
  

Aku: Sok i nak kua berjalan2 hehee.   

[Besh nih tgk reaksi die] 
Die: Owh. nak gi maner? ngan saper? 

[Pergh laju j tanye. ceh] 
Aku: Xtau ag nak g ne. sorg2 j. hahaha.   

[Hehehe. acah sket dlu.]
Die: Nape xkua ngan akak?

Aku: Akak kua rini. 
[Sket2 akak. ceh.]

Die: Owh nape x ikot akak?

Aku: Akak de hal die.

[Eiyh byk tanye lak. you j laa ikot akak. ceh.]

Die: Nak kua kol bp?

Aku: Tghri kott. Np?

[Hehehe. teman laa i, teman laa i.] 
Die: Owh. Ok x klo i teman u sok nak?

[Yeayeay! Nak2!] 
Aku: Wtpe?

[Aku nak cakap len laa!] 
Die: Teman u la. 
Aku: Nak wtpe? I nak kua sorg laa.

[Eiyh camne ley kua words len nih??] 
Die: Ok fine. Kua tu leklok, haty2.

[Alaawh.......tetibe aku rase sedih secare mendadak. huhuhu] 

Yea seperti tertakdir, aku mmg kua sorg2 laa. huhuhu. padan muke aku.

tossing and turning

Its 6:30 and im still up...which is considered as unusual for me. these last few days im down with a bad case of fever and runny nose. pretty annoyed with the runny nose thingy actually coz i havent been able to get any real sleep starting few days back due to this. *damn!*
well to add to my miserable state, there are a few things that have been on my mind too. i just cant put them into words....its indescribable. But i'll try. So here goes.

Firstly, i was pissed off with a particular person. ive talked to my fwen Mer about it and yeah, he said it was a small thing. sure i agreed with him..to a certain extent. the situation went like this:

-> he buzzed me.
-> i was dealing with some things at that moment.
-> he said he wanted to watch a movie at his lappie. i said ok.

*few hours went by*

-> he buzzed me back. i responded. we chatted.
-> he said he wanted to sleep. i was furious. *All this within minutes???*

So u see folks.. this is WHY i was seething! the plan i had in mind was like this, he finish that stupid movie, buzz me back and talk.
I dun care if you wanna sleep, im not wicked to deprive you from going into your 'LALALAND KINGDOM'!
But for just a few minutes of talking after those hours? My fwen, dats unforgivable. Hey, i was waiting for you to actually buzz me back ouhkie??

End.

wats up?

i dun feel well. i am not myself. i feel like d world is looking down on me.
so tired of being here. feels like i dun belong.
few fwens dun understand me; not bcoz they dun want to but bcoz i duno how to explain it to them.
i feel empty. i feel not at ease. i feel lifeless. WHY??
mer..alina..sorry for not being able to to express myself. i myself am confused of wats happening to me.
im so consumed with unhappiness that my mind hasnt been able to think correctly.

a day at the centre

PATIENT'S DETAILS

Name: NURUL FARHANAH AB RAHIM
Code: 2009011016
Date checked in: 151109
Time checked in: 1430
Attending doctor: NORAINI MD NOR
Status: SUSPICION OF CONTAMINATING THE ZM1234 ZOMBIE-LIKE VIRUS
Action: QUARANTINED UNTIL HOLIDAYS ARE OVER

Tgk inilah hasil bile aku da weng. hahaha

these are..

since ive started my deg in shah alam, ive been hit on with several misfortunes but thank god ive fwens who can help me out in times in need. alina, syera n fairuz.

--> ouh yeah diz guy has helped me on several occasions. mase finals, mase balik dr kL n a few more.
tenkiuwk so much laa incik fairuz. im so grateful. god bless u. hehehe.
--> deserved a mention here is also syera who had once gone all d way from puncak alam to fetch me at kl sentral. (sumting happened here, long story) and many outings done together. luv u babe.
--> not forgetting another dearly beloved, alina. shes such a dear fwen. walaupon kdg2 aku xphm lawak die but i luv her presence. n she too, has helped me a lot! there's diz time wen die amek gak aku even tho her scooter prob sket. alina, ur d best!

shopping?

went out with syera n kechik today, after they've finished their today's paper. planned to go to the curve, otw there we were a bit lost. hahaha. pusing2, da laa kene byk tol. biadap tol.
had lunch at Teh Tarik Place (not really nice, dun go there!) then went round the curve to find my mom's pwezzie (which was my main reason for going there).
wanted to buy her the estee lauder parfum but xde lak counter EL kt ctu. ke aku yg rabun xnmpk? hahahaha! so i bought her two novels. John Grisham - The Associate and Jeffrey Archer - Prisoner At Birth.
my mom loves novels like that. so might as well buy her something that she'll read over n over again. worth every dollar kott. hehehehehe.
and anyways, i bought myself a wedges flip flop with big beads of the colours black n turqoise. n also a black pumps which ive been looking for everywhere but sold out on my particular size. so pe lagi kene bli laa kan? hahaha. black pumps with gold studs. how nice is dat?
later on, bank in rm100 for my sis. shian die. hahaha

- a day after the finals ended-

it has only been a day after MY papers ended. how do i feel? weird. bored. *omg i cant believe i said dat* crushed. scared. empty. All feelings all mixed up. i dunno how to describe it.
i feel empty coz i havent been close with d ppl in my class...so i dunno how am i gonna get thru d coming sems. scared coz im afraid of my result. i certainly did NOT do well on my 3rd paper (grammar). sgt shedey kott. omg penat laa nak type camni. so here goes :

-> i watched MJ's This Is It and it was SUPERAWESOME! trust me. i duno u guys but i really did enjoy it.

-> my mom's bday is coming soon so im planning to buy her the Estee Lauder's Sensuous edp. wadya tink? i havent had the chance to test d scent yet though.

-> i juz got my pt. wat'd i buy?? TWO mng bags n a RL romance edp. the rest i duno wat'd i buy. hahahhaa. rm1000+ ive given my mom.

-> ouhyeah ive rekindled my fwenship with diz particular fwen of mine. hehehe. its been 2+ months since we've talked. gosh. however so.....it feels a bit weird now dat we r on good terms back.....

-> gonna watch 2012 with a few fwens of mine nex wk. hehehe. cant wait!