today everything was not in order of planning. my sis was very late. i was late in picking up my fwen at sentral. my mom was kinda upset coz i went out too many times juz in diz week. another fwen of mine was very late in confirming the outing so i was freaking confused with diz whole situation!
i picked her up from sentral, things were goin on smoothly, then she, my fwen n i went to have breakfast at kfc. blablabla lagi kat kfc tu then we went outside to walk to Pav. jalan2 lagi pusing2 Pav looking at clothes, then we went downstairs to the foodcourt coz i was feeling very thirsty. then lepak2 minum, xsedar it was nearing 2 o'clock. diz fwen of mine told me kene gerak kol 2pm.
i was quite surprised at dat time coz i thought he was joking! he did tell me yesterday dat he had to go home early....EARLY I TOT WAS LIKE, 5 or 6-ish! i never tot it would be DIZ EARLY!! damn. n i had promised to go back with him. i felt sooooo guilty towards her!! i seriously didnt know what to say or do.
when i said im goin back with him...then she said, ouh ko nak tinggal aku la nih??
o-mi-god. i was feeling more guilty! then, i didnt know why....but i followed him instead. [i know i was an IDIOT! dun remind me dat!]
GOD! i looked at her, n i saw her eyes were watery a bit. my heart was feeling very heavy. all the way through the journey back to my house......i couldnt stop but think bout d whole mess. i was in deep silence, my fwen was constantly asking me if i was alrite. [which obviously i wasnt.] he asked me if i wanted to go back to see her. i said, if i tried calling her n texting her so freaking many times n she wont pick up or reply, would u EVER think dat she will see me again??? aku takot kang die kecoh marah2 c2 or even worse wat xkenal aku if aku jumpe balik die, aku gak yang malu kan?? so i told him, no juz send me home. so he did.
when i was on my bed, i kept tossing n turning [in resah-gelisah mode], a few minutes i was looking at d ceiling, a few minutes then i was staring at my wall [which has nothing put up on it] n the rest i was feeling very restless. the flashback of me leaving her kept running on my mind. i was feeling anxious by the minute! GOD I WAS ACTING LIKE A TOTAL BITCH! leaving her like dat.....god, she was rite about me yesterday. damn, i had broken one of the rules in friendship n dat is, leaving ur BFF for a guy.
demmit. it was like, my heart was controlling my actions, not my mind! it seemed like, my brain cells suddenly died and couldnt work properly or sumthing.
people, DUN tell me wat i SHOULDNT DO coz dat, i owedy know n feeling SUPER regretful now! pleaseeeee tell me wat i SHOULD DO to fix it back. coz i certainly dun want diz mess to remain a mess forever. i want it to be sorted out...without any baggage. i dun want TO JEOPARDIZE diz friendship of 3years juz becoz of one BIG stupid mistake dat ive done. people make mistakes, but these people who made them deserve to be forgiven too. [it is NOT juz a fact my fwen, it is true.]
to my fwen, _____ [u know who u are] as i was writing diz note, i was feeling very shameful, regretful, anxious, stupid, selfish n watsoever dat u wanna call it. i know ur still mad, who wouldnt...but im asking u to pls accept my deepest apology bout diz whole situation. u can take how long u want to accept it, but pls put all diz behind us, n remain fwens again juz like before.i dun want to lose u as my bff juz bcoz of diz. fwen, I AM SO SORRY.
nowadays it seems like........my life has been awesomely jeopardized by none other than moi. congrats farhana, u now are certified to receive the "LOSER OF THE YEAR" award for this outstanding achievement of yours! wen i have flashbacks of the moments i have diz past few weeks..i realized now dat i had successfully gotten two of my besh fwens to officially hate me [yeay!] and my life sucks big time!
only now i realized dat :
- i suck in keeping my my fwens around
- i suck in balancing my whole messed-up freakin life!
- i suck in keeping my fam together
- i definitely suck in gettin any luck with luv now
- im juz suck as a whole person!
please people, dun be my fwens. dun be involved in my life. get away now as fast as u can or there will be no turning back. [im serious.] either u will get hurt, which i'll cry. or i'll get hurt and still i'll cry. so either u leave me or kill me. either way i'll get hurt nways so its kinda the same for me. coz i certainly cant keep my fwens from hurting. im not strong. fwens owez perceive me as a strong gal. IM NOT. im not strong n i cant b strong all d time. im weak, im frail, im helpless. and now i feel like the world is coming down on me. pushing me further and further till d edge of the cliff. its only a matter of seconds where i could fall or hold back. people, i'll juz send bad vibes if u guys are fwens with me..so i dun recommend u guys to still be. i know i'll sound xredha at diz time around..but do u know d feeling of semangat tiade? and diz not me talking bcoz of juz one bad case. everything is connected. everything in my life. so i cant possibly deal with all of these shit now. im not a good energy so leave me be. thank u.
old fwens, take care. i luv u guys damn much!
should i stay or should i run away?
should i be afraid or should i be bold?
should i accept it or should i deny?
should i make it known or should i put in the dark?
should i say it or should i surpress it?
should i leave it be or should i change it?
should i be hoping or should i put the hopes down?
should i linger still or should i put an end to it?
should i be avoiding or should i be confronting?
should i cry still or should i put the tears away?
should i ignore others or should i care about the words said?
should i pretend things gonna be okay or should i realize its otherwise?
should i make my way through or should i hold back?
should i preserve it or should i destroy it?
should i put my heart on the brink of destruction for you who cant really profess your luv to me yet you cant let me go for your heart has some affection to me [or so i think] and yet you mean THE WORLD to me. i cant stay longer if you juz cant be proud of having me around as your loved one and not only find me in your times of despair but also in your times of joy. my only wish is that you will be able to say it and really mean it and not make me as your second best.
love lost is hard but love undetermined is way harder.
Yesterday, when i thought about the upcoming new sem i have to endure.. suddenly many things came to mind. the what-ifs were popping one by one in my mind, asking to be answered, which obviously i have no answer of. the feelings ive been painfully felt these past few months, coupled with many dramas whatsoever, left me with miserable memories instead. juz early diz month ive turned 21, wow. wat an age. i didnt realize how far ive gone since i first finished my spm in 2005.
wow again. haha. 2006, got accepted to do my dip at uitm perak. during those years...well, u could say the first few sems i was constantly depressed and was trying hard to get rid of all the 'pests' ive stumbled into out of my life. haha. im not sorry for getting to know them at the first place, coz if i havent known them, then i wouldnt know how ANNOYING, SELFISH and USELESS human beings they are ever walked on the face of the Earth! ESPECIALLY U, EVIL BITCH HUDA! yes, ive said her name out loud, so what?? haha.
Nways, there were many luvly memories ive gathered as well. those Family Day Event, Ifthar Ramadan, Part 4 Event, ouh yeah and also THE Protest. Haha that was funny, the protest i meant. Everybody was like, so bz talking and preparing whatever things they wanna bring during the 'black parade' at the foyer. Us? cam beshe laa, taking pictures here and there. hahaha! wah, wah time protest sume smangat kan? time nak datang class lembik! [inilah ape lecturer BEL aku perli the next day hahaha] Ooooh, wait theres more! kitorang nih slalu hang out together ramai2 [budak2 p5 nih laa], baru besh dowh! i still remember those moments like when we went to batu gajah jz to eat pizza, overnite ramai2 tgk midnite movie, lepak2 kat padang polo [dgr afiq n feena nyanyi yg sumbang tuu hahaha!] and paling xley lupe, mase p5 ramai2 visit Puan Hazlina kat umah die, (7 cars if im not mistaken) followed by a splish splash kat Lata Kinjang, later on a trip to JJ [karaoke, makan2 sume] then makan lagi kat dataran ipoh, ended with a futsal game by the boys. Wat a crazy day we had! It was all fun, noisy, laid-back, crazy and everything else! I wouldnt trade that for anything!
Sampai mase, kene berpisah jua. i still remember that day Majlis Perpisahan Part 5 OM where it was held at the bilik TV angsana/bidara. GOD! that day was seriously, the saddest day of all days ive ever experienced! all the boys were there. most of the gals were present too. Paan as the then-OMSA President gave the farewell speech. afterwards it was the makan-makan time. later on, (this is the part i hated the most, the tearful part) we were told to push back all the chairs so that the center of the room is left empty. Feena told me that Afiq told her we will b having some kind of "sesi mintak maaf sesame sendiri".
hahahaha. pergh sape laa punye idea nk wat camni nih. buang mase j. (senar cam malu kan nak salam2 the guys minx maap sume hahaa) then mase prac and cuti slalu contact budak2 nih gak cakap rindu laa hape laa. cam poyo j padahal nnt jmp balik gak. hehe.
haha but since i know that we all got to further our degree at shah alam, so takpelaa kan? aku xya laa rindu2 korang da. dekat laa gak kan? hahaha.
Ouhkie, thats dat. then out of the blue, i got to know diz one guy when i was in p4. at first i hated him so much (ive my reasons ouhkayy? haha) and agpon we were introduced by wanie. tuu pon accidentally when we stumbled upon each other on our way for dinner on campus. before this ive heard wanie said so much about him but i dunno why i juz hated it everytime she mentioned his name....i soooo dunno why hahaha! then mase terjumpe first time tuu, wanie introduced me to him.
"aus, nih paan kwn along. paan, nih la aus."
he looked at me and said, "paan? cam name laki. serious." [trust me, mase nih style die ckp the word serious sgt annoying!]
upon hearing him said that, i felt like i wanna slap him! no kidding! [da laa before diz mmg aku annoyed gile ngn die kan, aku pon xtau nape haha!]
then diz one nite, me n my fwens were walking back from downtown and he was there too [i seriously cant remember how the hell he was there too] then i dunno how we got to exchange our numbers and starting from then on, he was the first one to send me a message. since then onwards, we were texting a lot each other n we got pretty close and eventually became the so-called BFFs. hahaha. he helped me alot actually but he gave me heartaches most of the time too. i felt like i COULD kill him sumtimes! *sigh*
but watever it is, he has been a good friend and i soo not hope it will juz end here, even though we are no longer at the same place. haha.
aku pon da xtau nak cakap hape da senar coz post nih aku da reserve lame cume xpublish2 j ag sebab asek xsiap haha.
Have u gals felt that one special moment truly special when he holds ur hand? dun u luv it when he shows his affection towards u without awkwardness? i know u gals will juz melt when he hugs u and say 'I Miss You' and really mean it.
Have u gals experienced moments where u go weak in the knees and felt like u couldnt stand much longer without holding on to him? Gals, gals, gals.. i know im a hopeless romantic but dun u juz LURVE these feelings uve felt all this while?
~ The feeling when he touches ur arm?
~ The feeling when he says he misses u?
~ The feeling when he holds ur hand?
~ The feeling when he touches ur cheeks and smiles?
~ The feeling when he looks out for u when ur texting back to ur nosey fwens? [hahaha im jz kidding, ouhkie, concerned fwens]
~ The feeling when he still laugh even though u know ur jokes are not that funny?
~ The feeling when he worries when u say ur not well?
~ The feeling when everytime u want to splurge but he says, "simpan duit okie, nanti u xde duit camne? nanti senang nak kua lagi kan?"
~ The feeling when he sends a message or calls u jz bcoz.
~ The feeling when he calms u down when ur angry or sad and jz listens to ur problems.
These are the feelings that i know u gals luv when u are with that special sumone. i know i did and still do. u guys are like an aphrodisiac to us, u guys can make us gals hepi in a snap and at the same time u guys are like poison who can drive us up the wall with ur immature ur-such-a-jerk attitude. hahaha. every gal dreams of finding her own hepi ending with her knight in shining armour. but sumtimes honey, ur perfectly created fairytales are not perfect at all. it can be torn apart by an evil bitch [oops, i meant to say Witch hehe] or whatever evil side there is. God when can i have my hepi ending?? *sigh*
ini tiade kene-mengene ngan sesiape jua. hanyelaa one post for ur eyes to read. :)
This time what I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time you burn me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away
Ive seen it all
It was never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
Take me away
Ive got nothing left to say
Just take me away
I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I dont know what else I can do
Cause Ive seen it all
It was never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
Dont give up on me yet
Dont forget who I am
I know Im not there yet
But dont let me stay here alone
Ive seen it all
And its never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
Ive seen enough
And its never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
Today imma n yana went round sA again to do the final round of house-hunting. i cant participate coz i have to do my med check-up today with mama. so nways imma have been calling me since 9-ish am asking bout the PTPTN thing which has to be done on9. [stupid site, da laa server asek down! page lembab nk mampos!] she told me that her cousin will b picking her up at her home and will go house-hunting together. [thank u imma's cousin!] hahaha!
nways around noon imma called up again to say they got a house. yeay!! hehehe. finally!! *relieved* then imma said ahad nih die nak g tengok umah tuu ngan her parents. hehee. then i said ouhkie confirm bile ley tengok nanti aku follow ko. she said haa lagi bagus tuu. xde if pape nanti aku sorang kene. HAHAHHAA!! sengalnye imma.
nways she thought of going there diz sunday. hmm...aku nak g ngan sape eik? ami.....xde transport so xley. then, i was thinking maybe.........him. lagipun he said by 25th he wont b working nemore...so......but will he want to accompany me?? idts..but hope so laa kan? god lame gile xjumpe die! rinduuuuuu!! hukhukhuk ;(
nways enuff bout the house thingy. ouhkie bout my med check-up. according to the doc, my lungs are ouhkie, n so is everything else. :D BUT my eyesight....gosh. my power has INCREASED!!!! damn! tuulaa mama. adek da cakap dulu. [xde kene mengene pon, saje nak blame mama. hahaha!]
nway doc soh g timbang berat and ukur tinggi. hehehe NOW DIZ IS THE BEST PART. my height is 157cm = taller 2inches than b4. mama pelik at my age now i shouldnt b growing anymore. eleyh mama jeles kan, kan, kan? hahaha. :D
ouhkie then....my weight. ------> 45kg!!! YES!! pergh maintain! gumbira habes bile aku dengar nurse tuu announced weight aku bape. dari skola dlu kot maintain 45kg nih.. [musykil sket laa tp xkesah. haha] i think ive gained weight b4, juz dat bile datang time kene timbang2 nih aku da kuwos balik. wahaha!! sonot2. :D
nways ym ngan feena tadi. topic yang wajib bile setiap kali ym ialah : "weiyh bile nak kua nih??"
hahaha. tah nye. plan da bkurun aku rase tapi tah bile nak confirm kua tah. hahaha. i tot of going out after seeing the house with imma n her parents. tapi transport lak xde nak jalan2. if de kete xpe laa kan. hmm.....feena lak cakap xd duet coz die bile de duet sure jadi bendahari kat abang and adek die. HAHAHAA. hmm then she suggested on the registration day kite kua. i said malam tuu laa ouhkie kot. coz pagi ke petang sure orang bz wat hal settle umah. hehehe.
nways jz wanna share sumthing dat my ex-roommate juz told me thru ym juz now. nih kunun2 cam ingat kenangan lalu laa nih. cewah! hahaha. mase sembang2 tuu i told her i got a house owedy. then i mentioned i MUST bring along one BIG ridsect spray to the house later on. then the conversation continued like diz :
"weiyh aku nanti HARUS menyediekan satu ridsect spray nak g umah baru nanti!" -me
"hahaha. ko nih ade2 je." - jimah
"yealaa nanti sure ade 'mende2 tuu!! EUWWWW!!" -aku
"takut benor dgn lipas tu. dia tak takut pun dgn ko. hahaha!" -jimah
"sebab die xtakot aku laa aku takot ngan die!! hukhukhuk ;( " -aku
"hahhaha... mintak2 cik pas tdo dgn ko skali..hahahha" -jimah
"JAHAT GILE KO!! JAAAHAAATTTTTT!!! jangan laa weiyh. kang mau heart attack housemates aku nanti hahaha!!" -aku
"hahaha... biar dorg rase ape yg aku rasa dluu..hahaha" -jimah
"heart attack ke ko jimah? haha. *wat muke xbsalah*" -aku
"mau tak nye.. siap dpt penyakit lagi tau. penyakit melatah. tak penah2 aku melatah. hbt tul ko haha. :(( " -jimah
hahaha begitulaa kesahnye yea kawan2. haha. so b prepared my dear future housemates. you are in for a rude awakening. :P
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today i was supposed to go out with ami n ekin to shah alam for the house-hunting thing. *sigh*
we are to register at uitm shah alam diz coming 5th and yet...STILL NO HOUSE??? apeke pathetic gile kami nih?? hahaha!
ouhkie ekcely, the previous plan was me going out with alina n rina. they were searching for a house too, tapi kat puncak alam coz rina got to further there. but somehow i texted ami, saje nak ajak die teman aku g house-hunting. tot it would b easier since he knows dat place other than my fwen rina tuu. so bile da msg2 ngan rina n ami, ami said to go to kL first b4 going to shah alam. so i was fine j laa coz to go to sa, i'll have to stop at sentral first anyhow. so i texted rina saying i'll go with my czn first, then ade mse kite lepak. God knows how long i havent seen dat gal. ;(
so nways ive arrived around 10-ish [kot. xingat sangat] at sentral and went straight to d ladies. haha dari dlm train trase dowh! hahaha. then g cari topup jap, a few minutes later ekin called saying they are nearby the taxi area upstairs. so bile da masok kete syafiq (one of d agents) called asking pasal umah, nak sewa ke x. so i was like ouh xpe laa discuss dlu ngan my fwens.
then sampai sa, round dulu kat pusat komersial tuu, nak tengok dulu the condition kat umah yang kunun2 corner lot atas khalifah tuu. O-MY-GOD. its not even corner lot. he was bullshitting me. i tink its an end lot. i asked my czn to peek upstairs. n i went up a bit too. ouh god. the stairs itself freaked me out! hahaha so we went round first (dengan bjalan kaki and usha2 tangga di situ)
akhirnye aku lapa nak mampos and menyuarakan hasratku kepade czn2 aku tanpe segan-silu.
"weiyh marilah kite makan! hoi lapa nih! aku xbreakfast ag kott!" -me
"haa jom2 kite makan kat bangi kopitiam tuu." -ami
i wanted to order nasi lemak ayam rendang initially but it wasnt available. so terpakse order nasi ayam sotong. [xtau laa sedap ke x kan] ami ordered jz roti bakar, and ekin ordered keropok lekor. aku yang lapa tapi dorangnye food sampai dlu! XACI!
then mase kuis2 nasi lemak tuu, nampak laa byk halia. omg!!! xsuke!
even the sotongs tasted like halia yg blambak tuu, hukhuk. akhernye aku tidak mampu jua untuk menghabeskan nasi lemak tuu. ami marah aku.
"weiyh bazir dowh xabehkan food nih. bak sni." -ami
"heish bising j ko nih. xsedap dowh. rase sgt halia die. yekk!" -aku
"haih mi, aku ke ko yang lapa nih?hahahaa!" kateku pabila melihat abeh sepinggan nasi lemak sotong tuu. die hanye mampu sengih. haa bgs mi, itu adalah satu tindakan yg bgs krane jike anda bsuare anda akan kne balik. wehehehe.
pas da makan2 mengenyangkan pewot kami meneruskan niat suci murni [more like terpakse haha!] untuk mencari umah di sek 7.
setelah berpusing2 di situ, mencari2 di kristal, flat sek 7, pusat komersial and laz skali kat baiduri. then i got laa a few numbers and da call2 da pn. tapi xley confirm lagi. after baiduri, i said enuff to ami n lets go sumwhere else. hahaha! pergh xlarat kott! dari pagi hingge petang di situ j!
huhuhu. then we went to klang bukit tinggi JJ coz ekin wanted to find her books. in the end, aku gak yang beli cecelia ahern - where rainbows end [xabeh bace ag arituu, kne beli!] and also 17 mag. hehehehehe. the books she wanted were not available there so we went to damansara to search there. then stop kat ikea coz i wanted really bad to eat the karipap there! so nice!
terbayang2 lagi nih. hehehehe. and then i looked at the time, oh god! 8sumthing and i wasnt even on d train yet!!! *berdebar-debar atiku ini*
tapi yang peliknye mama masih xmsg. haih slalu slalu tuu laju j call aku "adek katne nih? bile blk?"
haish nih jgn ckp call, msg pn xdapat nih. ke da lupe aku? hukhuk. wah mentang2 conquer umah sorg sonot j mama aku nih hahahaha! so akhernye aku membuat keputusan untuk aku yang call die. [eiyh terbalik lak kan aku lak yang wiso die hahaahah!]
"mama, adek kat bangsar nih. baru nak gerak sentral." -aku
"ha ouhkie. da naik train lom?" -mama
"lom laa baru nak gerak sentral." -me
"ouhkie." -mama. dan sebelum mama sempat lecture aku, aku terus ngan soklan len. haha
"mama da makan lom?" -aku
"lom la tunggu kamu nih." -mama
"haa dun wori mama, adek ade beli karipap kat ikea untuk mama. confirm sedap! xtipu. haha"
"yeke. ouhkie laa.da tolak dari sentral gtau mama" -mama
"ouhkie tata."
wah ini sudah bagus. 9something and still in kL, mama not worried?? hehehehee. GOOD NEWS BABY!! hahaha. [i think maybe coz she knows im with ami n ekin tuu yang xwiso langsung tuu. most likely sebab aku ngan ami laa aku rase, krane he's like so familiar with the roads there *ceh yeke*, and coz he's my czn n coz he's a guy. ceh.]
p/s: ami, ko jangan bangge lak bace nih. ceh. hahaha!
Sempena aku dan sahabat2 seperjuanganku akan berpergian ke Uitm Shah Alam tepat pada 5 July 09 nanti, maka aku merasekan bahawe aku harus berbuat sesuatu. Tapi, ah, ape yang aku nak buat nih?? aku keliru. aku buntu. aku runsing. aku pusing. Jadi, setelah aku bergossip ngan rakanku menggunekan my house fon hampir 20mins [ shorey Mama, terpakse. ketiadaan credit. hukhukhuk ] aku bergossip pule ngan rakan baekku Mer. Sebenar aku hampir nak ido, tetibe adelaa pulak kan msg masok. [ heish sape lak teringat nak anta msg kat aku kol 4.26 a.m. nih?? musykil aku ]
Msg itu berbunyi begini : "Paan ko watpe? Bek ko rep msg ak nih. Lau x ko da biadap. Hahahaha. Rep la paan."
Heh, tau lak ko yea mer nak soh aku reply?? slame nih aku soh ko reply ko wat mongox ngan aku. hah rasekan ko skang!
[ membebel sambil meng-on9 YM balik dan buzz ZHEIMER sebelum membuatkan diriku invi. haha. ]
Kami ber-YM dan merepek2 hinggelaa ke satu topic nih yang aku rase seperti dekat di hatiku [cewah!]
"Weiyh kite nanti da len campus. nanti aku da xley sakat ko. susa nak bluetooth gambar. susa nak mek gambar same2. xley pjm cd heroes da. hahaha." -mer
"Alaawh cam laa jaoh sgt. xp ley buntut mase kite ronggeng2. xkan xmo ronggeng kot kan?" -aku
"Buntut?" -mer
"Apeke lem ko nih mer? bluetooth laa aduyyyy." -aku
"Haa aku tau! ape kate kite wat topic baru?" -mer
Make bermule laa post baru utk hari ini. Mer...diz one for u!
> Paling miss : Nak YM-ing ngan ko. bile da msok deg susa laa coz schedule xsame. And aku tau ko sure mish nak nyakat aku kan mase ym? aku kan slalu SALAH TYPE. haha!
> Lepak ngan ko, kat foyer, uptown or downtown
[eiyh penah ke kite lepak downtown same2?? hehe]
> Nak ronggeng lua campus ngan ko n ramai2 ngan yang len.
[ g makan pizza, overnite ipoh, mandi-mande lata kinjang]
> Mempergunekan hp ko untuk menangkap gambar hahahaa
[hp ko canggih aku ske haha]
> Bercite mende mepek2 ngan ko mase overnite.
[ ko j yg layan aku, afiq confirm2 layan feena j haha]
> Import export lagu n movies dari ko. hehehehe
[beshe laa kite same genre kan, kan? haha]
> Aku maseh kegelian ati semase kite tgk cite Rouge (buaye bodo) kat jj mase overnite. aku kan seblah ko. aku siap ley ido ag, de ke mongox tol haha. pastuu ko dengki ngan aku, ko kaco aku. pastuu aku tkejut gile2 cam orang bodo kan mase satu scene nih kan. *malu j*
> Kite penah jadi classmates mase p1, aku penah sembang2 ngan ko tapi ko j laa bangang, sombong nak mampos [naseb bek xmampos ag hehehe] ngan aku. aku tanye berpatah-patah, ko sepatah haram pon susah nak jawab kan? rase seperti meminte untuk aku menampar mukemu laju-laju. hehehehe ;p
> Ko pendengar yang baek. ko xsenang judge kawan2 ko. i know it. coz ive shared with u some of my deepest secrets yet u still give me advice and xkritik aku. aku respect ko yang tuu.
> Aku dipergunekan untuk menyimpan Winston anda semase hendak masok balik campus. hahaha! 2 kotak lak tuu! mongox.
Sekian, pape komen ley ditujukan tewos ke fon saye tapi tidak akan dapat maklumbalas, BILE2 PON. hahahaha!!
Haish 10 hours and counting..
Saling ber'call'an : Yana n i.. haish pening lak aku ngan umah nih. merempat tepi jalan j laa payah sangat. hahaha! [heish kne tol2 kang bru padan muke haha]
Called Imma tadi, ceh die senang-lenang g makan kat lua hahaha. ngan afiq laa tuu. hahaha!
I said, "Ma, ko dapat main kan?"
"Eh sape nih?" - imma
"Paan.." -aku
"Ouh paan. Aku nih da cam perunding hartanah lak sume orang tanye pasal umah kat aku haha!" -imma
"Hahaha. ko nak sewa x ngan kitorang ma?" -aku
"Aku memang nak sewa lua. tapi ade 2 orang kawan aku lagi. xpeke?" -imma
"Haa xp laa. Lagi banyak lagi bagus. aku pn ade kawan sorang nak join. Tadi aku da cari kat site NR, dapat kat Baiduri." -aku
"Weiyh kawan aku cakap Baiduri mahal kot. Deposit j da mahal" -imma
"Eiyhyeke? tapi aku tengok tadi de yang rm125/head. tuu xtau laa camne die kire kan. haha" -aku
"Camni laa. korang tinggal j umah aku. sewa bilik. katil, tilam sume de. mak aku siap masak lagi. hahaha." -imma
"Haha sengal laa ko nih imma." -aku
"Xpela. aku kat lua nih. nanti aku call ko balik k." -imma
"Haa yealaa. ouhkie babai" -aku
"Okie. luv u. bye2." -imma
Aku dengan kadar segera meng- IM khausar. memang da ym ngan die tadi pon.hahha.
me n her ekcely wanted to stay at Kristal. tapi my czn Ami said Kristal rent mahal gak. Cis ko nih aku nak gak rase dok Kristal. da laa dekat gile ngan uitm. hahaha!
despite dat, i found out a couple of ads for Baiduri, which is near gak to uitm. n less expensive than Kristal. Yana said, xpe laa if rm1000/house pn coz nanti kite sume 7org so per month cam less sket laa kan? tah laa aku pn da pening hukhukhuk. daa laa aku selsema xelok2 ag.
PTPTN xsolve ag.. they said kne beli new pin num and reg on9. [aduyyy sume nak on9 susah gak coz xsume tau haish]
nways we'll juz see how it goes. :S
Don’t wanna close the door
Don’t wanna give up on it
Don’t wanna fight no more
Tell me what I gotta be
And tell me what you wanna do
Coz I can’t live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can’t go on
Livin’ like we do
Do I have to cry for you
So tell me what it’s for
If there’s no winner in it
Nobody’s keepin’ score
Let’s start from the beginning
Do I gotta stand in the cold dark night
Till the mornin’ light
Do I have to say
I won’t let you get away
Do I have to cry for you
le chéri, bien que je sache que vous êtes encore pris I vous aiment et ne vous laisseront pas partir jamais. je sais que vous ne me prendrez pas dans mais je ne m'inquiète pas.
sayang, je t'aime puis. je t'aime maintenant. je vous aimerai pour toujours.
The result for my internship was out laz 11th june. the gpa was awesome but my cgpa decreased a bit. wth?? kedekot gile uitm nih. cis! my fwens all got good results too [CONGRATS DARLINGS!] and an ex-rm8 of mine got ANC. God, kewl gile! darling im so proud of u!!! muahmuah!
Nways the result for deg intake was out laz 15th. ALMOST ALL OF MY FWENS got sa. YIPPEE!
altho diff courses, still..we can meet up n ronggeng2 kan, kan?
UNFORTUNATELY, yang MOST tuu got at puncak alam. whereas i got at the main! [sucks!]
ekcely, me n some others laa. yang some others tuu got mass comm, so dats y they got at main campus also. haha! [aku j yg alien len sket course hahaa]
btw a fwen of mine suddenly sent me a comment at fb saying, "Panjangnye name course ko. ko mmg minat course tu ke?"
I was like, wtf?? i didnt even tell him wat did i get at the first place! dun tell me he hacked into my account! damn u K!
He told me he juz looked at my deg result. he swore he didnt even take a peek at my prac result.
like hell he didnt! would u believe dat if he managed to look into my account, wouldnt u WANT to see everything?? God, u suck big time K! if u wanna kno, u can owez ASK , NOT NOSING AROUND!
ouhkie enuff bout him. wat im complaining about is dat where do i stay?? dulu Ika tny aku nak ke stay ngn die kat umah sewa? i was tinking dat i wanna stay on campus so i said xpe laa ika. then she said ouh ouhkie then.
then bile dpt tau deg students wont get a place, i was mortified!! God, help me pls. hukhuk. i heard my fwens in puncak alam will get to stay on campus. [sungguh not fair!]
i messaged khausar (my bff from skewl) on fb [pe nak wat bile zmn makin canggih, on9 j] asking if her house is available for another hsemate hahaha! *cam nak kene merempat j sodeyh tol..hukhuk*
aku lak da menyembang ngan ijat cakap psl diz stuff. he was like, "aku ag laa. da laa laki sorang j."
hahaha the way he said it was so funny, its as if he'll b the only guy at the main campus, surrounded by roses. HAHA!
"weiyh camne nih jat..aku j kat main. yg len sume dapat kat puncak alam. biadap tol! dorang nih xya laa berpuncak2. aku dengar yg kat puncak dpt kolej tau. xaci gile. ko kat main kan?" -me
"ye kot kat main. 2la xd tempat tinggal ag nih. kite dok umah skali nak?" -jat
"haa ley gak. kang jais datang aku lari dulu laa.hahaha" -me
"haha. ok la.. klu jais datang ko lari dulu ikot pintu blakang.. pastu aku pn lari gak potong ko coz aku lari laju..haha -jat
"ko nih biadap laa jat. xsayang kawan tol. ahaha! aku nih tengah berunding ngan alina camne. die pn dapat main, tapi die nak dok ngan rina kat puncak alam cz rina dpt sne." -me
"hah oyeke. weiyh tanye alina de quorum ag x untuk aku?" -jat
"pe mongox ko nih jat? bhaye dowh tinggal skali hahaha! sengal2" -me
"alaa kite tinggal skali. nanti aku ley jage korang. xd laa bhaye da. hahaha!" -jat
tetibe aku trase kawanku sangat sengal dan seperti meminta mukenye untuk ditampar olehku laju-laju. hahaha.
"heh ape2 j laa ko nih jat. tah laa if xdpat dalam susah laa." me
"tula. kene cari alternatif len laa nampaknye." jat
haish kami nih sangat kesian upenye. hahaha! baru laa aku sedar. kan besh cam kat SI dlu, kolej da de. hikhikhiks
then juz now yana texted me thru my fon asking to get back to her regarding a place to stay. yeah, since i left my fon in my room (i was downstairs watching Mission Impossible II. haha ade ati ag nak tgk tv padahal bakal merempat) and since ive no credit [Youu, bile nak topup i nih?? hehehe] i had to call her using my house fon.
"Yana, haa nape?" [aku pn agak2 laa kan. kenallaa kan diri dulu haha] -me
Beliau terdiam seketika. "Paan?" -yana
"Haa yealaa. nape psl shah alam?" [pure-pure tanye] -me
"Haa yealaa aku baru tau ko dpt main gak. Ko dok dlm ke lua?" [aku da agak sure tny pasal nih] -yana
"Haa tuu laa. aku pn xtau laa yana. aku igt 1st sem nak apply dlm. tapi aku tgk kat Net die ckp deg students xdpt dlm. Dip students j confirm2 dpt dlm, tuu pn 1st sem j. tapi aku tny Nad rituu die ckp nak apply dlm. tah laa yana. tp aku tkot gak kang xdpt dlm ne aku nak rempat if xdpt tmpat kan? hahaha" -me
"Tuulaa aku pn fikir camtu. aku igt nak cari umah skng. tapi tgh pening nak cari housemates. aku terfikir ko Paan. Tikah ckp uitm de bg contact num utk org yg cari umah sewa." -yana
Wah ini suda bagus. "Tuulaa. faizah gtau aku rituu yang die pn tgh pening psl tempat nih. aku xkesah j asal de tmpat tinggal. tapi if ley sure laa nk dekat ngn campus kn.haha. aku ley j ngan korang. nad camne? abeh tuu sape ag yg ko nak ajak?" -me
"aku igt ko, aku, nad, tikah, imma. yang len cam nana, faizah. tah laa dorang pn xsure lagi. ko tlg laa confirm ngn dorang camne." -yana
Halamak aku pn xd credit. hukhukhuk. "ouhkie laa nnt aku call dorang camne. ko katne nih?" -me
"aku kat umah baru sampai j. baru balik holiday." -yana
"ouhyeke. beshnye. pegi ngan sape fam ke?" -me
"aku, bf aku, adek aku, bf adek aku, mama aku." [kami kegelakan sebentar di situ, entah mengape.haha] -yana
"hmm ouhkie laa nanti aku tgk camne." -me
"ouhkie thanks Paan." -yana
Aduyyy laa uitm..mengapekah kolej disediakan sangat laa banyak sampai xmampu utk menampung pelajar2 chumel cam kami nih. hahahaha! nvm, Uitm Shah Alam (kaler rasmi uitm haha) here we come!
